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Wednesday, November 30, 2005

heyo.

haha. just dropping by to say i changed my skin. hurhur. what can i say. i'm easily bored. haha. wells. i think i'll blog later..

in my black grass ;
5:00 AM

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

ola.

haha. kinda bored. kinda sad too. listening to toni braxton- unbreak my heart. classic, yet so nice. the il divo one is in es spanyol. i think. listening to the song on my hanphone. papi went out addie. reached batam addie. gonna mish pissing him off. hope he'd take care. gonna mish him too. hrmm. i feel sad for iifa. but. this is life. buat bende tak terjadi.. jadi. dunch feel bad aites. you hav mysjunkie. me. your beshties. aites? cheer ups. if you don hav fams. you have friends. your friends. don be upset on tish issue. it was kinda harsh when i read your blog, you know. well. i addie promished to cbrate your burday wip you. cheer up iifa. aites. hmm. bored siah. wokup an hour ago. tehee. like as usual. asik2 nak kluar je. plan break. hrmm. sufr gotta jaga her big bro. maz is sick. fargk siah. so we'r going tomorrow. yaysie. i mish thos yn kids. hurhur. wells. i wanna eat. breakfast i suppose? well. chiao.

take back the sad word "goodbye"
bring back the joy to my life..

life is so cruel without you here beside me.
unbreak my heart. say you love me again.
undo this hurt that you caused
when you walked out the door
and walked down on my life.
uncry these tears..

=)) Copyrite. lagu toni braxton.

in my black grass ;
7:47 PM

halo.

i'm bored. extremely bored. people just tryinga keep quiets on me these days. wells. when life give you lemons. throw them away. hrmm. it's pouring. not really that heavy. light thunder.. hais. went to johor bahru just now. go giant. went grocery shopping. nothing much there. i was just totally in love with HAPPYDENT and my cambell soup snax. and don't forget. coke. haha. i didn't buy alot uh. nothing there. papi's going overseas tomorrow. don't know where. haha. just now i watched harrypotter gof. dvd. clear siah. 8rm. hurhur. kinda boring. cause i already read the book. i never imagined that voldie had a so called "demonic" face. whats with the slit nosetrills siah. well. barty crouch jr killed his papi. so damn obvious. viktor is kinda keyoot. yerps. to me he is.. kinda. but badan babi. cedric is hot. totally. only now, girls realised who is cedric digg. oh please lor. you guys think you're his. and please lor. me, flinz, cheryl and zabeen reserved him since last year. so. back off. he's hotter in his other pictures. i have alot of his. and you guys have never seen it before. cho chang not keyoot. she's damn ugly. kinda fugly. doesn't look asian to me. nevile weight loss? haha. he and ginny totally fit. and. uh. can somebody tell me. why barty crouch jr got tatoo. and the tatoo can move. scary siah. the sirius appear in the fire thingy kinda lame. i read it in the book. so, expecting. hurhur. can't wait for the harrypotter oftp. harry's got a prophet. ooh. wakakakaka. next year defence against the dark arts teacher is going to be centaur. and he gets killed. and hagrid has a half brother. haha. dad bought doom and exorcism of emily rose too. watching it some other day. hais. maybe tomorrow going out with sufrina. ms vinty. and kalao, insyaAllah, candykid. sufr asked me if i like khairul. wah. want to say i love him also like. wrong ukh? haha. she said that banyak orang nak kan dia. fuh. jelers ako. tao tak? tapi dia cakap khairul suka reject. wah liao. you play VERYhard to get huh? khairul. my keyootie mr nice guy. aiyoh. why are you offline siah. fugger. i mish you. mishes you loads. oh yah. mr germany. i do treat you as a friend. and i respect you as one. but please. i knoe if i made a mistake aites. geez. haha. wells. wasnt online from 5 to 10. watch hp. then go watch ed season finale. wah. she's going out for a whole summer with dennis. why. and ed. one kiss only? hais. you got nice dimples. i love your eyes. i like the previous epi. haha. you videotaped your 'life'. the slenger guy likes diane. budden diane like the tubby. and then they made out on top of the ferris wheel. poor slenger guy. haha. i would want to have a kish on top of a ferris wheel. tehee. then desper housewifes came up. nice. carlos going jail. gabby is pregant. dunch knoe if the lawn mower guy or her husband. bleh dapat aids sak sex 2 owang. haha. susan house kena burnt. kitchen ukh. rex is jelous that bree is going out wip the pharmacist guy. haha. well. now im playink the comp. kinda bored. my sassy lil hani not online. sobs. haha. wells. happy holies to all e muddafargkers!

in my black grass ;
6:05 AM

Monday, November 28, 2005

hey. its 1.58am. i'm bored. chatting with MOHDzahrin and sally. sms-ing mr germany too. kinda hot. in a dark room where only the pc becomes my light source. papi thinks i'm asleep. my whole family dead already. except me. hais. i'm sorry if i'm hot-tempered ar. its kinda pissing to make somebody remind and think back about their past. sorry if calling your name reminded you of dila. big brother, i never meant to make you feel bad. but i just find it pissing. okay? haha. sms-ing mr germany is so fun. it's like. better then having bestfriends. haha. because my friends and i don't talk about pepek or koyak. haha. he's awesome. i still love mr germany. in many complicating ways. muwarrkhs to mr germany. i'm bored as my dahlynk went to sleep already. khai told me so. i guess he ain't lying about that. why khairul, why? why you left me in the cold dark room. alone and not smiling. not laughing. not telling you i love you. why?! hais. you bastard. probably at dreamland, dreaming of somebody else. hurhur. nasty me. i miss his crazyness. i miss him. one week already since i saw his face. saw khai yesterday. whohoo. haha. khairul keyoot laa. i dunchkare what other people say. he's crazy. its your sewel friend speaking here. hurhur. sally's playing a game right now. probably and i guess so. like this skin? broken doll. i've been changing skins. because of the boredom i had. and i blame it all on khairulnizan bin abu nain! arwgh. i still wanna hug you thou. hmm. i will wait. chayang you. tehee. hmm. so hot we should need some rain in here. tehee. hais. bored siah. big brother keeping quiet on me. geez. hais. i kinda miss hanii. haha. probably because we talked too much. and being with her is so fun. teehee. i'm still finding a perfect pwezzie for my sassy lil hanii. haha. lil. get it. LITTLE. teehee. just turning 13. but not yet. wakakakaka. haha. i miss hunnies. i miss ms krwumbs. ms dew. and ms bunch. these wacko pyscho's rock my world. let's hope we're still the same. hais. i miss mikey too. haha. wells. speaking of uncle. who do you think is cuter? mikey way or frank iero? fyi: members from mychemicalromance. i'm so stuck on both. oh ya. sorry. aaron aziz's blog no more, i think. i took it from the manja mag. teehee. never take kak oni's bloggie. haha. wells. you guys should really visit staying-alive.ORG. its interesting. considering the cartoons are lame. well. if you want to have sex. seal it with a condom first. or go clinic check up if you got aids. hurhur. be safe then sorry. singapore might not be big in population of aids. but don't take advantage. do spread the message across. yep, yep. i hope to be an aids ambassador someday. and i'm kinda volunteering in telling others the message. remember, AIDS HAS NO VACCINE! =)) msDEE will help. one way or another. ikhlas dari hati. teehee. ytd also got to play xbox. for the second time. ferst time was to ruin hafiz's match. then play what lame winning eleven. hafiz got goal. italy vs england. france vs germany? dunchknoe. dunch recall. but i won him twice in the penalty shots. whohoo. bhahaa. wells. i dunch wanna talk too much. cause i did this out of boredom. no one really reads my crappy stories anyways. haha. oh ya. EH MR GERMANY. YOU VISIT MY BLOG. AT LEAST TAG ONCE LA. WHATS THE POINT IN HAVING A TAG IF YOU NEVER TAG. besok pergi pasar heh? wakakaka. okays. i end here.

tataas. chiaos. goodBYE.

in my black grass ;
1:56 AM

Saturday, November 26, 2005

heh. like my skin? not nice uh. changing again. teehee. haha. wells. chatting with sulhi and zahrin. bored siah. haha. ytd went out wip my beloved gal. that would be hani. haha. we went tamp. not much uh. she buy gift box then we go tab. eat at ljs. haha. we sat at the lib. okay uh. talked alot. laughed alot. i had fun uh talking to her. she gerek siah. haha. tmr i going out wip hunni krwumbs. she gonn help me find a perfect pwezzie for ifa. haha. malas seh nak type2. okay ar. pa per nak; tag meh!

in my black grass ;
9:28 PM

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

hello there.

you like my skin's song? liberate; slipknot? haha. i know i love it. want to tutop your telinga, tutop ar. tak heran. blog ako. blehx. haha. chatting with this pyscho gal. haha. and abang farhan. geez. haha. i'm bored. OKay. sue's birthday is on the 3rd of Jan. bashing up with the Fersh day of school. me, dayah and ween. and this special 'guest' too. she very good at sabo-ing people. haha. any friends of Suriati Binte Kahar who would like to join us in saboing her on her very birthday; do beep me yaa. we using tepung and telur. just tepung and telur. not our very own urine. some sewel gal thought of saboing her wip that. giler. haha. giler. tepung and telur. sue's burday is ferrsh day of skool. how fortunate to be 14 so fast. haha. hani's burday coming soon too. haha. she just turn 13. haha. okay laa. i stop the birthday thingys here. i got invited to go to this chalet on the eve of new year. i so, don't want to. not really uh. considering got peples i don't know actually want to be with and peples who do sins all the way for the whole year. so. i putted ma resolution list up already. kinda early. but. at least i can prepare for myself. and i can't believe zahrin would laugh when i put in ma list, grow taller. haha. later i add, stop *beep*ing crap. ahaha. wells. i wants to eat. i'm hungry. waiting for either zahrin or khairul to be online. lamer deh.
wells. till now.
still hahaa. liberate!
babaix. toOdles.

in my black grass ;
9:59 PM

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

like you ever know the truth and reason for being so Islamic. being rude. revenge? like its all gonna happen. right now i'm going thru my madrasah jhd tauhid book. it says alot about Islam.
Notes;
Erti Allah ada ialah ZatNya ada. Zat ertinya "diri". Zat Allah tidak serupa dengan zat kita. Kita tidak boleh melihat Zat Allah dalam dunia. Siapa yang kata dia kenal rupa Zat Allah, adalah sesat.
right there, i prove my point. okay. my dad wants to use it. chiiaows.

in my black grass ;
6:52 AM

hey.

sorry long time no post. i've been ignorant to my blog. haha. okay. i talk about yesterday. went out go watch movie. wanna watch harry potter. but sold out. so we went and watch skyhigh instead. me and fauzi hor. i was wearing ma brown boatneck op tee and ma fave jeans, and slippers and no sweater. go there take 22. coincidently took same bus as eddy. i heard his voice and he was on the phone wip farha. sot sia ako. haha. while waiting fo the muvie to start, we go walk2. then i saw sulhi. at ferrsh macam tak kenal seh. he's keyoot thou. then fauzi bought a guitar pick thingy. before that got this crazy fella attack ma cheeks. haha. and that was. jamilah binte jamil. haha. dia giler. she was wip her guy friends uh. haha. then go up. go hang outside the arcade. then saw khairudin, his sister and he's sooo charming brother. haha. that would be khairul. haha. i met alot of ma friends siah. then go watch skyhigh. quite funny uh. will stronghold hancem seh. warren peac is keyoot. haha. then muvie finish'd. saw khairudin again. we talk2 for a while. haha. i can't stop saying haha or even laugh. thanks to khairul. laughing is contagious but i think mine stays permanent. haha. then go home. khairul and din all go watch exorcism. onetwothreefourfivesix! haha. then after the muvie, me and khairul sms'd. haha. we talked about kisses. haha. he likes french kisses too. hahs. i am daring enough to take that. =)) then went online at around 1o.3o. chat wip zahrin, zulBESAR, khairul, weween and joshua. okay. i don't want to talk about my problems online. because i can't trust anyone, anymore. except hunnies, ad'ars and ma beloved chayaang. bhahaaX. then suddenly, this gerr. attitude maciam da koyiak. nak label ako. haha. NO ONE LABELS ME! wad farker your parents are then. shameless and senseless. don be a big fark and label me. God made us equal. what makes y'all so special? pathetic sia. serious siot. peples hate me. i hate them too. it hurts to know that the one you think you love, hates you. and for no reason. haha. now im all in love wip mr khairul. kekekes. nunna HARTS qube. haha. mai ya he. tak tertgok ako harry potter. haish. naseb ako laa. oh, and yaa. i won't break my promise to zahrin. because i stand for myself. and i don't brag about anybody. yeah. when i say forever. i means it. tunggu la sampai akhirat. owang yang celaka pat ako mestiiii kene nyer. haha. khairul taught me not to curse peples. so i wont and i will wait because God knows best. thanks Khairul. i owe you alot for always being there for me. you are a gentleman. a great one too. and u owe me a big slubberish kish.

till now. bye.

in my black grass ;
2:06 AM

Friday, November 18, 2005

hey. i'm in a situation siah. the ironing board fell onto my pinky toe and the other one. i'm leg retarded. i'll get back at you later..

in my black grass ;
12:44 AM

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

DISCLAIMERS AND SLUTS, PLEASE LEAVE.

OKAY. i'm used to this. i can shake this situation off. sure, can. disclaimers should leave before i unbreak what i tried to do for ain. okay. peoples think i step jambu and step cute. please, judge fo yourself. like i said. words can't change me. and everybody has their difficults in life. i guess mine started today. hrmm. i'm bored. chatting wip khairul. trying to let him give me a hug. =PP ain's out. as so as he does, everyday. hrmm. i wonder if ain's free tmr. he's always busy. maybe we'd catch a movie? oh yar. speaking of movies. today is Harry Potter's release in Singapore right? who watch addi? i watch'd the never before scene. hermione and harry kish'd. harry got the what2 dragon. then he took his broom and fly around hogwarts then the dragon ikot. then harry jatoh on the roof. watch it, yaa? okay. my mumma won't shut up. i thinks this is all for today. oh yah. I'M SORRY FOR EDDIE GUERERRO. he used to be my hero. and now he's gone. ='((
The Latino Heat still Lives in My Heart! ='((

in my black grass ;
11:26 PM

Halo!

i'm kinda bored. ain's out. chatting wip fauzi. i'm listening to stickwitu. weyerd title. but ain't it nice? i recor'd that song on ma fhone. loud and clear. yay. shinx bot me sushi. eating it sambil2 chat wip fauzi. mm. nice. wells. i'm so bored. i edited ma frenstar profile addie. still renovating it. haiishx. got to go uh. babaix.

in my black grass ;
12:51 AM

Monday, November 14, 2005

hallo. its 3.o1pm. =)) ytd nebar blogg'd siah. ma dad lor. forc'd me to sleep. haha. wells, i knew i had fun. went out jalan yayer wip ma gal pals and some iwitatink bastards. went out wip syafiqah, farah, hani, dinie, dilla, fareha. and harry, azwan, sheihron, hud and eddy. kekes. i was glad as syafiqah really did talk'd to me. bcos of hunnies, asik kacao e6. she still at least, layan'd me. farah was sick. she puk'd at nadiaVictor's crib. haha. toilet hor.. bfor that, we were sitting in the bus. 291 tak salah. i was sitting wip farah and harry was sitting in front. farah say'd she felt like vommiting in the bus. i thot it would be farni. so i ask'd farah. agak2 muntah kao kaler apa uh?. abe harry macam. kekes. dowan to tell uh. haha. then when we reach'd nadiaVictor's crib. farah pinjam toilet and puk'd. she say'd her vommit kaler was greenish. kekes. =PP then we go whose house next. beaver's house uh. kekes. on the way from the bustop to harry's crib. i took eddy's slippers bcos he took hani's perfumes. then we hid it. he tried to take it. then we all attack'd him. he shout'd "rogol" siah. kekes. then at harry's crib. eddy buwat prangai siah. haha. i think he mad at us. =(( bhahaa. kene rogol degan hani. then the gals all hungry. me too. most of us never ate breakfast, lunch and dinner. so we went to tampines. thot of eating at longjon. then tak jadi, we at at kampong chai chee restront whoteber laa eh. we ate. i ate fried rice with salted fish? most of them ate chicken rice. hani ate whot crispy noodles. dunnow whot fareha ate. haha. the bill was $34.40 tak salah. haha. we pay'd all 2dollar notes. kekes. then got this matKENTAL. stakat dye rambot blonde je. kecik2 takmo prangai uh sia. kekes. we went home. we took 8. i drop off at safra. then took 65. i went home 3minutes before 11. kekes. what i really lov'd ytd was that i had to spend time with the a'darx and the iwitatink bastards i us'd to loathe. azwan keyurte siah ytd. kekes. oh yar, padan muker ron lidah kene infection. i'm bored. i'm not chatting wip anybody rite now. not interested wip anybody online now. wells, i wanna bathe. ma breathe smells lyke crap. ma hands smell of crap too. dowan ma mumma to suspek anythink. babaix.
nothing is what it seems!

in my black grass ;
11:00 PM

Saturday, November 12, 2005

hallo. ma clock shows 2.o2AM.. again. watching wwe afterburn and bottomline. while chatting with khai.. =)) so bored. went jalan raya with ma famly just now. boring. but, went to ma dad's friend's crib. was the best. i think. he's anak, mamat. so cute siah. then go to nek yah house. i play with the cat. it had the most beautiful eyes i've ever seen. then go to ma dad's old schoolmate's crib. ma neighbour too. had fun. me and shinkx saw this kid, digging his nose then eating his fargking nose shit. haha. fook that guy siah. then nekmahbee and nek jah came. kecorh sia. haha. now i'm drinking coke. watching how vince macmahon is humiliating jr. curse the macmahon famly. well. i think i got ma favourite wrestlers on list already.

o1- john.cena
o2- rey.mysterio
o3- chris.masters
o4- randy.orton
o5- hardcore.holly (still the best)

=)) it's 2.o9 already. going to watch wwe. do tag. i know alot of you all don't tag arr. notti peples.

in my black grass ;
9:58 AM

Friday, November 11, 2005

hey. let me rant abit now.. its 2.o2AM now. just want to say i'm sorry if every time i change skin, i lose my tag code. it's not like i save my html code.. =PP i really in love with this skin. the "piling dead bodies.." quote thingy from khai666, a blogskinner famous for his metal skins. hope he doesn't mind if i copy and paste. the goth gal looks lost. with wings and lost eyes. wow. i like duality. even thou it's a lagu basi. haha. went out wip quraisha ytd. to bugis. i wore my brown op boatneck tee. don't wish to boast, but i loves it! then go bugis. bought an automatic eyeliner. q told me to try the maybeline one instead of the silky gerr one. haha. i did. then we bought hair dye. she bought eyeshadow. she bought liq'd eyeliner. haha. sot siah pakai tu. dyed ma hair. tak perang uh. dark brown. or more obv's soon. then we went to eat at mc at bugis sq? then go seiyu, look2 at ma future kappa shoes. look for tees. then go to op. bought a tee there. blue kaler. we-yerd sia. i was wearink an op tee then buy another op tee. haha. wells. i wanna chat wip ma friends. and i'll get my taggy tmr. i think. haha. chattink wip fiyfee_black and qube_zee. wheheee.

in my black grass ;
9:59 AM

Monday, November 07, 2005

hey. today i ranting twice. or maybe tonight might rant some more. i'm kinda bored. i finished my dad's 'paperwork'. konon clerk ar tu. haha. i'm bored siah. no one online. fauzi's offline. zyklon's offline. syafiq long time offline. bebear might most probably forgotten me already. khair is away, so i can't share my crap with anybody.

wells. went out for a while just now. went to tamp. finally saw Zahrin! he was wip he's akak angkat. i got insulted for my height.. sad siah. at least i got to meet him. i'm happy. haha. i'm recording Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry). haha. its suchha nice song. i hope to spend more time wip Zahrin. i don't mind wip his akak too. it'll be a big regret not to.. =)) dah uh. babai.

in my black grass ;
1:30 AM

Sunday, November 06, 2005

harlow.

before i rant anything. let me say a Selamat Hari Yayer to every Muslim readink my bloggy.

sorry if there was a long period of not being online and blogging. my computer crashed, like i never tell you like that siah. =)) my computer still got Spyware, i think uh. not laggy. but cannot save files. dissapointed as my dad banned and deleted Msn msgr. so i use Windows msgr. fargk this free world largh. i've been thinking of changing my skin too. i found one. but tak sempat time uh. computer still sotX!

hmm. uh. liyana. what's wip you? takdur pasal nak carek pasal asal? comments about me? keep it to yourself laa. i don't really need it. if you think that's gonna bring me down, forget it. okay?

okay. i don't want to rant angry stuffs at my very own blog. i wasn't happy for my results, not really uh. i failed my maths. dissapointinkly, by ONE mark. and that was a 'U' grade.
okay. look at my marks;
English ~ 67 (3)
Malay ~ 58 (5)
Maths ~ 49 (U)
Science ~ 65 (3)
Geog ~ 50 (5)
Hist ~ 50 (5)
Litr ~ 62 (4)
dNt ~ 76 (1) =))
He ~ 74 (2)
Art ~ 59 (5)
i don't care about my hist and geog uh. maths only. its because my first semester i weak in my maths. then overall siket. than average with my semester two. 49.. 61% and going to naek pangkat. yays! 2a1 tau. hahaks. oh yah. speaking of pangkat. np got on mind. i want to find another cca. jannah need not to worry. tell kak faj i'm sorreh. i reconsider another cca. even if i continue np, i still a stuped cadet. because i never took the stuped promotion test. =))

i babble too much. going bloggink other people's bloggy. going to jamilah's blog ferrsh! hrmm. to disclamers and naggers, love or hate. build or kill. shuddarp. my blog and my say. dont like then leave. no one ask you to come anyways. Happy Holies evryone.

in my black grass ;
8:13 PM