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Thursday, June 30, 2005
hello . hehe . hrmm . haha . ekh . aiyo0h . listening to spoiled - joss stone . hies . today quite boring , tiring and sleepy . boring bacause weenie never come . tiring because i really did my schoolwork . sleepy because i slept in maths class . hies . today pon penatkan diri sendiri . hies . thinking of cabot-ing kwa's lesson . but sue don't want . okay then . so i ikot . she say later kwa call parents , again . aiyah . only zah , dzu , nas , tasha , me and sue only turn up seh . kalau tak turn up pon boleh seh . tak kan kwa nak call about 34 kids seh . haha . hies . so lapar . mummy cook curry . yay . going to eat after posting . chatting with mazlina and sue . hehe .
disgusting seh tadi . i went back to school . at around 3 . i wanted to see my cayang . but he play soccer . so i tried to "bond" with eddy . siak ar . he said he tak kenal me . haha . i wish i could feel the texture of that guy's head . kasar nyer . lumpy . hehe . eddy , you suck . he also said i like zaki . no lah . i love my one and only . [ ekhems ] . faiz also stared at me sia . fuck ! this time he stare for a long time . i was like , apa sak kau tgok tgok . he just stared . angry at me ? don't think so . hrmm . i think he knows . nadzmy disgusts me . no one there to stand up for me . so sad . felt so fricking pissed inside . so i go toilet and release my anger . and do my hair . hehe . then i come out . go out of school . nadzmy lick icecream . fuck sia . lidah panjang siyal . hies . now i'm home . i'm tired of typing . i'm wearing yu neng pe tee with the name tag on it . and damai pe shorts . haha . bad combination , i know . hies . okay . i'm gonn' eat now . byeeeeeeeeee . me love [ekhems] !
in my black grass ;
1:56 AM
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
hey . today sucks . so boring . felt so gloomy today . maybe because of h iim . saw him walk past my class with iqmal they all . aiyah . hrmm . today got nagged by wong b0 . si tetek besar . kekeke . i sengaja never bring any history stuff , except my history project . teehee . hrmm . we had to do an essay . so lame . 25o words - 4oo . i did 216 words only . heck care . supposed to stay back do summary for gita . cabo0t . also must see mr tan . me and ween , cabo0t too . hehe . if that tan dare call my mum or dad , call ar . they know yesterday i go out , so i cabo0t . hehe . hrmm . tadi english kekek seh . hehe . nadzmy patah tangan jatuh katil rupa-rupanya . hehe . during assembly , xavier marah we all . gi mampos . nak ketawa pon salah . hehe . paris ? haha . kekek seh . hrmm . chatting with mazlina now . i miss her so much . hies . i'm so bored . listening to going crazy - natalie . lagu lama seh . hies . whatever lah that guy . he want me to call him abang angkat pon boleh lah . gasak kau lah . tapi hati nie tetap sayang . hrmm . boring ar . i want to eat lempok , lom masak . i want to eat what mummy cook . but she haven't finish cooking . aiyaah . okay lah . i want to stuff my head into a pillow . let me scream in . long live h iim .
in my black grass ;
2:49 AM
Monday, June 27, 2005
hey there . hehe . today is . " the first day of school " . that was what most of my peeps said . oh come on . its the term 3 . shesh . open up that calender dude . hehe . listening to " bad , bad man " - john cena . he's hot . who0 . hehe . today , surprised that afifah really turned up for school . haha . hrmm . me and weenie cab0t from seeing mr tan . to hell with that old man . even if he calls my parents , heck care man . my parents know i go out . bedok interchange . with suzie and weenie . hehe . sushi ? rotiboy ? ntuc ? mcdonalds medium fries ? whah . hehe . kekek seh . then buy icecream . me take turns with weenie and suzie seh . weenie lick once . then suzie . then me . sial ar . icecream 5ocent pon masih share seh . wakakaka . hehe . kit akan . ekhem . budget . hehe . well , just now at school , i never see or meet my baby . i miss him so much . called him just now , he bored . i told him later at night i call him back . he said not sure . i can't babe . sorry . i jaga this lil' rascal . aiyaah . sian tau . he in his cot now . hehe . tadi i kopek durian . help mumma . she want to make lempok . alerghai . if she want to cook , i eat lah . i long time never eat durians seh . hehe . gerek seh . tapi pon i never go home after come back from bedok interchange . i go duduk and lepak kejap with meen and q . hehe . makan maggie . hehe . got this guy . i don't know his name lah . he recognise my face already , aiyaah . he looks so irritating . eek . then rugby guys came to mike's . sial ar . i saw sheihron , azwan , harry , acik and khai . siak ar . khai muka cam musibat sak . siak ar . tak handsome seh . [ serious ] . eek . abey nak step comcept "m0d" seh . aiyaah . you're not the guy i used to know . =P . whahaas . hehe . whahaas . i adopt that word from sarahh . hehe . hrmm . i miss my cayang very much . i drew on a piece of scrap paper . with tasha's orange marker . i draw . draw draw draw . very nice . q wants to look at it tommorow . i mean , the paper is very nice , the design ar . not the name . aiyaah . i love him so much . this time is for real . i mean , my past 8 ex . they never really layan me via sms AND calls . hehe . pasal sayang yang nie plark , my prepaid left 6.78$ . hiesh . hehe . at least i have about 25minutes free airtime . who0 . hehe . okay lah . i want to play with irfaan . hehe . silly me , hes playing with sHiNx's cds . haha . scratches not my prob ey sis . hehe . okay . bye . [ you and me . WE BELONG TOGETHER ! ! I WISH THINGS WOULD LAST FOREVER . ]
in my black grass ;
5:02 AM
Saturday, June 25, 2005
p as in pheobe . h as in hebe . e as in ebe . o as in obe . be as in bebe . and e as in . ello there mate . hehe . yeah . kinda lame , i know . hehe . just came back from tuition . damn tired . did algebra . whoah . damn hard seh . this week no homework for me . yay . kekeke . five or six pages of full page algebra . i'm lucky to be alive . hehe . after tuition , send my tuition teacher go cik edah's house . then antar shinx go bedok interchange . from tampines to pasir ris to bedok interchange till home . all the way i sms my cayang . whaa . hehe . yeah i know , weird . dad buat bodoh about those sms`es . shinx yang membebel about me sms-ing . hehe . lah , sms my cayang pon tak leh . what only shinx . hrmm . bored seh . listening to "i miss you" again and again and again . hrmm . miss my best friends . suzie . yana . syarfique . ween . hymmppffhh . hehe . funny seh suzie . she say she's fat and she wants me to help her . later open school ask me to remind her not to eat from monday to friday . poor girl . without her , how can i eat during recess . hrmm . later , monday . i feel like . i wanna . chase . syarfique . hehehe . i wanna hug and squeeze that baddie . i miss my cayang so much . hehe . i hope i will never see that eddy again . suckka . hrmm . yesterday watched wwe . whoohoo . now i know that john cena is wwe champion . whoo . he's a bad man . a bad man . hehe . then stupid kurt angle pin sharmale . sharmale cannot wrestle seh . she not wrestling contract tau ! luckily got booker t . tapi dia kena hit gan steel chair . piia0o0 . stupid right . ffc uk lah that kurt angle . oh yeah , john cena admitted that carlito is . n0t co0l . who0 . yeah . hehe . okay lah . i want to , drink coke and watch tv . to00oooddLes .
in my black grass ;
5:32 PM
Thursday, June 23, 2005
hi . okay . had a short chat with hani just now . i think it was a mistake or misunderstanding . they all made me frust . hiesh . chat with wani also . she okay okay today ar . no more crappy stories . hies .
dear syafiq ,i really don't know what's gotten into you . i was watching chori chori chupke chupke a few hours back . but then i don't know what happened to you . i mean like , aku tak bersalah seh . what did i do ? then , telling me to shut up and fuck off . you really should think twice about what you said tau . you is garbage . i had so many fights with you , but this time , aku tak bersalah . if i'm not in the wrong , why should i apologize . so , you really should , K1SS MY FC UKK1NG ARSE . GO0D BYE .
hrmm . i really don't know how i feel . towards who ? mohamad eddy noh hisham . argh . i love him . or not . buy , zah is "his friend" . i bet she's really lucky . with a guy that has the cutest eyes . tamn . hies . i want eddy . or not . hies . got to go . going to do homework . to0dles . [[ miie kk0nfusd . miie wwan eddii . bbut miie dunn0 iif miie relliie wwan eddii ]
in my black grass ;
4:13 AM
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
kekeke . hi . i edited some of my html . kekeke . i was bored . but it took me two days though . can you believe it . two days . i took hours just to get a mv in my mind . i wanted blink182 actually . they never give codes for blink182 ! fc ukk ! blink182 rawkx . listening to the rock show . haha . the songs i hear , mostly crap . i love dammit . haha . i put pictures in extras , so that , they can see me ! kekeke . hrmm . so bored . feel so happy for my bestie friend . she has her own blog . you know , for a beginner , she very good . i don't know if anybody helped her ar . but that skin is nice . but she never add anything inside . no links no songs . never mind . next time i help her . but her skin about a girl in the rain . is she depressed ? kekeke . listening to i miss you now . hies . don't waste your time on me , you're already the voice inside my head . hies . i miss syarfique sia . miss him . alot . but i don't think he really cares if i miss him or not . i'm always " angry at him " . shesh . maybe annoyed , but no need to go that far what . hies . miss him . hrmm . now is first date ! hehe . forever and ever . lets make this last forever . hies . okay lah . enough . mum , shinx and faan just came back from the pasar . they bought me coke . 1.5l . yeah babe . writing a testi for yanarif . okay . bye .
in my black grass ;
9:49 PM
Monday, June 20, 2005
hey . damn . i damn tired . so i make this a short post . went to pulau ubeeeeen just now . kimak . roll in mud . like teh susu . and then cover ourselves with mud . cam babi . siak . dah lah cukup ar . the walk was damn stupid . inst hakim ar . we had to do pumping in mud . not ordinary mud . this one is very wet . like . real teh susu . so watery . felt so tired . then got bee attack . hehe . the cooking our hads still abit muddy . haha . so tired . chatting with my cutey utiie syarfique . hehe . saw eddy just now at school . hies . i think zah want to make me jelous . she block him from seeing me . aku tak sempat cakap hi . maybe because i'm nervous or just . -_-" . i don't know my feelings towards that Mohd. Eddy Noh Hisham . that guy very odd . a part of me wants to hate him . but i just can't . somebody otta help me get him off my head . he is the only one i was crazy for . now he's gone . i just don't know what to do . i don't want to hold back . hies . better be alone because i don't want another heartbreak . hies .
in my black grass ;
1:09 AM
Sunday, June 19, 2005
hey . today went out in the afternoon . go pasir ris park . lah . also at the beach that side . was great . me , mama , faan , cik tini , haziqah and pak itam . got invited by mama's friend . barbeque . was great . indonesians . i think . birthday girl was turning 10 . didn't really talk to her . pak itam play yoyo with his friends . hies . talk with iqah . mostly buat bodoh ar . chat with khairi just now . things are pretty back to normal . he's no heartbreaker to me now . i''m gonn respect him as a friend . hehe . his gambar at friendster so keyut . hehe . he looks better when hes hair is flat . hehe . hies . but going to the beach was not bad . hies . i just finished bathing . now my body itching . awchh . chatting with this adilla girl . hrmm . just now some freak sms me . tam . you all keep asking me about Farah . back off ar sia . i never hate her sia . i just hate ad'arx . now you guys no more ad'arx , better . yah . she give the bag back . i got say i hate her ? i got ? jangan asal boleh tuduh ar . mulut tu slalu gossip . diam ajer ar sia . tak tau pa per . lek one corner minum susu diam diam ajer ar . sweh ar korang . confront told me to read testi . hani give farah . tam . i never hit boys liao . i rarely . i know the testi didn't really describe all about me . what's with the biitch . well . to get back to y'all . i had to do the same to farah . shame her on msn ? well . not really . aww . no more sickening ad'arx . but who cares . my objective was not to break you guys friendships . i don't care about your friendship . i know i was in the middle of you guys friendship too many times . i back off . now you lil girls scratch off my back will you . let me chill . and . actually . i never hated dila n' dinie . yeah . well . i too , hate widad . hrmm . no more friendship with you guys . i have better friends outside school . we bond closer then you guys . so . if you really want to tuduh asal boleh , open up the calender and check the dates before having real proof . WHO SAID I HATE FARAH , NOW ? SHE RETURN THE BAG ALREADY . FULL STOP . DOT . and about what i said about " you make me hate ad'arx " . i actually do hate ad'arx for a long time . hies . enough about that . argh . faan is crawling towards the chair . damn . okay . gonn grab coke downstairs . tomorrow going pulaw ubeen . hiking . be back late . think sister will use . don't think can update tomorrow . but do , beep me on my mobile . damn . i miss syarfique . muuarrcckkxx .
in my black grass ;
6:06 AM
Friday, June 17, 2005
hey . been quite a while since i blogged . school opening soon . 27 June . that's so . . not far from today ! argh . oh shit . thanks for reminding me about my homework ! omg . oh shit . hies . i'll start tommorow . or monday . oh wait . monday got hiking . nevermind . tuesday i'll start . kekeke . hrmm . playing habbo . hehe . i got angry at Fauzi just now . i very lazy to tell you . hiesh . i really hope , me and syafiq will get along . i feel so bad about just now . i really did . i guess i was the one who started the fire . but i didn't start everything . hies . i wanna thank confront , you really gave me an alert then . i read everything . totally . thanks confront . hies . who could be my bestest and most trusted friend be ? well , i don't really care . because , if anybody is my BESTfriend , who would really want to betray me . hehe . oh well . going off . good night .
in my black grass ;
10:40 AM
Friday, June 10, 2005
urgh . . tell me . . am i really that ugly till you hate me ? or maybe you think i'm shallow ? some say i'm vain . . they don't even look at my heart . . its shattered here . . shesh . . thanks for being honest khai ! thank you . . thanks for those reasons . . you are so honest . . hate you . . i love you. . i can't believe i fell for a jerk who only looks at apperances . . never have i seen these kind of guys . . i bet even shahrizad don't do that anymore . . do i have to cry for you ? hrmm . . i can't believe i felt for him . . argh . . sucka . . jamilah's giving great advice . . thanks girl . . we on the same side now . . qas and khai . . suckkas and total jerks . . hrmm . . i pray to god that something would happen to khai and qas . . i'm down on bended knees . . i pray to the almighty above . . hrmm . . whatever lah . . bye . . [ khairi sucks for life ]
in my black grass ;
6:56 AM
urgh . . tell me . . am i really that ugly till you hate me ? or maybe you think i'm shallow ? some say i'm vain . . they don't even look at my heart . . its shattered here . . shesh . . thanks for being honest khai ! thank you . . thanks for those reasons . . you are so honest . . hate you . . i love you. . i can't believe i fell for a jerk who only looks at apperances . . never have i seen these kind of guys . . i bet even shahrizad don't do that anymore . . do i have to cry for you ? hrmm . . i can't believe i felt for him . . argh . . sucka . . jamilah's giving great advice . . thanks girl . . we on the same side now . . qas and khai . . suckkas and total jerks . . hrmm . . i pray to god that something would happen to khai and qas . . i'm down on bended knees . . i pray to the almighty above . . hrmm . . whatever lah . . bye . . [ khairi sucks for life ]
in my black grass ;
6:56 AM
Thursday, June 09, 2005
hey . . hehe . . just so . . argh . . khairi HAS msn . . he added me . . chat with him just now . . its so hard to forget him . . first saw him under my void on monday . . tuesday saw his face at qas' friendster ! now he added me . . fuck sia . . does that guy always have to be everywhere to me ? you're everywhere to me . . when i close my eyes its you i see . . hmm . . i can barely hang on . . hrmm . . i understand if he wants to be alone . . but please . . argh . . tell me once its enough . . okay ? enough . . argh . . he's an obsession so strong even zul can break away . . hmm . . once bitten twice is shy . . hies . . i said [143] to a guy . . he really thought i . . him . . as in ". ." not . . him . . argh . . what can happen next . . my life went backwards . . a part of me wants khairi so bad . . a part of me just wants to hate him . . why . . khair was right . . why should i hate someone whom i just can't have ? its alright . . but . . if i can't have him i'd rather be single . . playing habbo right now . . an actress . . getting paid soon . . =D . . bye . .
in my black grass ;
5:38 AM
Wednesday, June 08, 2005
hey . sorry didn't post yesterday . my computer sian . . hehe . . the bum bag . . its so nice . . mesh bag with pink stripes . . i will never lend it to my sister . . haha . . my glove bag under the bed . . hope she won't find it . . biarch . . hehe . . hmm . . staying home the whole of my life . . i bet prisoners take in more fresh air then i do . . hrmm . . feeling rather sick . . stupid cough hit the back of my throat . . coke didn't help much though . . hrmm . . something like bothering that syarfique . . hies . . hope me and fiq can never turn out like everyday matters . . we always apologize at the end of the day . . we always start with sorry is nothing but a word . . hies . . its almost 8.30 . . wanna eat . . anything sms me . . the stupid biarch who pranked me will so gonna be fucked up because she don't know what i ever did to her number . . going for my dinner . . bye . .
in my black grass ;
5:18 AM
Monday, June 06, 2005
hey . . just got back from tampines . . with irah . . had an okay day . . bought a bum bag , a charmbracelet and took neoprints . . hrmm . . kinda bored . . but also tired . . okay ar . . i better rest . . anything , just pop me a message aite ?
in my black grass ;
3:26 AM
Sunday, June 05, 2005
hey . . how are you ? hehe . . i'm so happy today . . even though mama nagged at me 7 minutes ago . . heck i care . . see my blog ? i made it . . sort of . . hehe . . i love it . . don't you ? will's switch . . yeah . . with glitters . . actually the glitters and siggies came from dollielove and dolliecrave . . they deserve the credits . . you should chek it out . . its really cool . . argh . . please oh please tag in before you leave . . give me comments about improving . . i'm a beginner blogskin-ner . . please and thanks . i'd rather be going . irfaan's driving me mad . .
in my black grass ;
12:17 AM
Friday, June 03, 2005
hey. you like my new skin? its a little bit over broad right? must be the "stylish gurl"..but who cares. i love it. only my picture there not nice. please agree with me on this one. well. it took me. 2 hours and 17minutes to complete it. [ yes, i timed myself. ] whoo. really looking forward to going out. no tuition . yahoo ! hrmmx. i can go out anyday. anytime. just wondering. when will i go to the beach? feeling a bit. "beach-y". yerp. i bet my parents won't allow. hrmm. oh well. maybe monday going out shopping with irah. hope she can come. want to buy bag. yerp. then later maybe thursday going to watch a movie. hrmm. mama didn't cook. dad brought food. and i'm hungry ! okay. bye. please give me some comments about the skin. i also want to put a video tag and remove my picture. tell me what song that fits my skin ekh? bye.
in my black grass ;
10:34 PM
Thursday, June 02, 2005
hello.dad finally paid.yes! hrmm.i wanna go out.go out with slow and confront.but us,trios no money.damn it.no allowance.whats a holiday with no money? argh.i need money. ( i cut down on my coke,but its not helping. ) damn it.hrmm.i'm waiting for Zul to reply.has been 6 days, since i've been waiting for -raDeon pRince- to reply.hmm.i got a feeling Haider has already forgotten me.how many weeks already.haven't top up? impossible,Haider..Impossible.listening to Mockingbird, to kill boredom.hrmm..haven't topup.no sms.no calls.damn it.i'm so bored.god damn it.really missing pRinCe n' Haider.hmm.life's so UNpredictable for me now.i'm hungry.let's see..i have a pile of homework to be done.history project n' literature comicstrips to be done in groups..done most of history.alone.i insisted on doing.my hardwork and effort,suriati will present.amek kau! 9 contributions and crap about some of singapore's pioneers.haha.please tell ayah to give me allowance! hmm.whats a holiday with a pile of holiday homework to be done? holiday? hell-iday.hrmm.watched parent trap yesterday.whoo.wanna eat.mama didn't cook.what to eat? hrmm.afzal really pissed me off just now.i hope his presence will really turn into silence.hrmm.i changed my look.sort of.cut my fringe.i bet its shorter than danial's.going to cut it shorter.hope my face won't really become a complete CIRCLE.yes,bulat.okay.i'm going to grab a quick snack.happy holidays.yeah right..
-_ chi-bi : not in love.
in my black grass ;
12:30 AM
