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Friday, August 19, 2005

heys .

long time no post , right ?

so lazy to post . ahaa .

it's a friday night ! i can play the computer till 10 ! wahaa . i post because got nothing to do . chatting with Qas , now . ahaa . Jamilah ! he mish you ! as a friend only . ahaa . listening to helena ( MCR ) . yeahs . lagu lama . but . . isn't it a nice song ? i love it . so long and good night . ahaa . that's not right ! my real purpose of posting was because of NP training just now . i got the profiency badge thingy . not the top5 but i did pass . =PP . kawan2 gwe yang enggak terima badge enggak kecik hati yer . minggu hadapan ada lagi . =))

happy to be on sir's "squad" . i look at mam's "squad" macam scattered . ahaa . i improved my maju , hentak kaki and my berhenti . can't say expert ar . ahaa . mam's "squad" the timer like siots . ahaa . mariam better ar , even slower timing . ahaa . i got my first badge for NP ! bhahaa . i did enjoy the sing-a-long with my mam and sir . ahaa . we also played a game . instuctor diana made us play a game . boy girl boy girl stand in a circle . guess who was behind me ?! faiz ! he touched fauzan's shoulder . so his shoulders were right above mine . suweets . ahaa . relek sua . ahaa . even though i hate uzair , pity him siots . zah didn't layan him . cian nyer . then she go with faiz for the next round . and i got hassan . sians right ? ahaa . it's okay lar . she's out to get my guys ! ahaa . sian jer . am i jelers ? oh no . =PP

never ! ahaa . well . penat ar . engkaulah lambang cinta . ahaa . cinta trajika . udah la . b u a i s . .

in my black grass ;
5:59 AM

Saturday, August 13, 2005

so much for being - "OKAY"

heys .

long time no post . ahaa . well . kinda doing nothing right now . . my limewire sots . so . . cannot hear songs . chey . i use WMP . listening to because of you by kelly clarkson . ahaa . been thinking about changing my skin . or maybe change my video . screaming infidelities . gwe udah mendark banget dengan lagu ini . mendarrk bangerrt . so . . any ideas about videos i should put up . hais . so bored . peeked to qas' blog . ccute . greenday . wake me up when september ends . ahaa . i asked him a question . so . . i'm asking y'all now .

what's so bad about september . wake me up . when september ends ? do bears hibernate in september . i watched the video . about perrang . but it doesn't make sense to me . anybody . tell me !

went to tuition just now . do angles . corresponding angles etc . . ahaa . i master it but not with the construction part . next week no tuition . my nenekCAT celebrating her birthday . yeah , my nenek . 55th birthday . quite young . don't you think ? my dad's 45 . i think . nenekCAT and nani same age . but nani older . =)) ahaa . i have 3 neneks . i enjoyy myself . okay . WE call her nenekCAT because sHiNx said that she used to keep loads of cats . she lives in telok blangah . i can't wait to mix around with my wwe fanatic cousins . yeah . we love wwe . i love batista , john cena , eddie guererro . and chris masters . tomorrow madrasah . i haven't hafal a single ayat , huruf . jim , alif . ta . die . if i fail my arab test . shame again ars . i'm the dumbest girl in that class . sucks . hais . ooh . now listening to secret love by jojo . ahaa .

do i look like a minah . please ! aku tak main minah2 ni sumer lar . unrespected junior ? you don't respect me why should i give a damn fcukin' shit to you sia ! none is prefect . i owe a big thanks to you , Syafiq . can't believe i waste my time and heart for someone who doesn't even seem to care . i tried to be "okay" at the moment . but you just . you don't make no sense to me . i think .
i'm so hungry . gonna eat . =))

in my black grass ;
2:05 AM

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

hey .

gonn' make a short post . its 11.29pm on my clock . so . . shh ! well . i'm so confused . should i like spectacle hook guy . or *beep* . i mean . like . urghs . i like one guy . thats enough ! but another one popped out ! *beep* is a man of his words . hahaa . well . i can't insult . because i don't wanna fight . i'm trying out this thing . where i don't talk to people behind their backs . that's totally cruel . ahaa . larr . dad membebel . i post pictures of fireworks i took and the pics i took with my friends . tommorrow . i promise ! ! !

in my black grass ;
8:21 AM

Monday, August 08, 2005

hey there .

had fun today . did you ?

but 1a1's stall sucks . yeah , i admit . stickers . but our designs were pretty much good designs . hahaa . saw mr chen . at his void . he lives in 716 . wheets . he's not teaching damai again , i think . had fun during the concert . i didn't really sing along . ahahaa . i just kutok those who sang all the way ! specially kwa and ang . kekes . i admit . qas is so cute ! hahaa . he and all those stupid singers . the singers were burok . abit ar . kassim sang . funny siots . we took pics with him too . hahaa . i think i'll put it up on the next post . qas is damn cute . hahaa . pysch . eh . got to go . my sister want to use . so . . i recall my day later or tomorrow .

happy 4oth birthday Singapore !
let's reach for the skies . =PP

in my black grass ;
5:11 AM

Friday, August 05, 2005

hey .

sorry didn't post yesterday . was too tired . had my np yesterday . i almost gave up . i almost collapsed . but guess what ? i pushed myself and i survived ! but my head till today berdenyut2 . i prefer the sec4 ncos . we had longer breaks and those ncos are tamn GEREKS . hahaa . sec3 ncos . so boring . less breaks . we never really got hold of our "maju" . hahaa . sue and ween stayed back until about 5 . i think . they decorate the stall . its nice ! but stall big and nice . we only sell one specific item . stickers . lame rights ? hahaa . well . yesterday . got home . watched tv and play comp . at around 9 i slept . yeahs . didn't mandi . my pe tee and shorts . never brushed my teeth . i lay there flat . with my phone in my left hand . my hands locked beneathe the pillows . woke up , hads were still under the pillow . handphone was still in hand . woke up when irfaan tickled my legs when he was climbing my bed . ahahaa . then got up . charged my handphone and bathe . kalana came . early in the morning siots . watch abit of fantastic 4 . listening to "love for me" by ashlee simpson . who0ts . love that song . =))

having tuition at 3 . hate my mum and paps ! they don't let me go farah's chalet . so what . you offered to pay 200 per month for tuition . farah chalet at 2 . like . i hate life . when can i be done with it . urghs ! i hate em . i updated pictures on friendster already . since they expanded to 25 pictures . . =))

well . going OFF .
<3>

in my black grass ;
10:29 PM

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

hello . ahaa .

okay . today , had abit of fun . slept during maths class . barely awake then . did quater of my literature summary . went for recess . then i saw that GUY ! i think i like that GUY ! okay . okay . my friends and i call him "ho0k" . ho0k because he wears spectacle hook . ahaa . then had geography . drew some shoits on my yellow paper . i scribbled , " spectacle hook guy " . and drew him . nazirul and syafiq . waawaa . okay . okay . the pictures were actually guys with a tee and a tie on . long pants . vulcro type shoes . thier hairstyle . except "ho0k" . ho0k got black specs . so i drew . then i cut ho0k off . and showed it to almost everybody ! ! ! we had fun at pw . i am in decoration crew . so . . we needs gala [ bamboo sticks ] , cloth , pegs , twine . . budget is 1obucks . hope its enough . =))

then go run back to class . took the other half , nazirul and syafiq . then i ask those malay people , which one was the cutest . so , ho0k has 7 votes . nazirul has 1 vote and syafiq had 2 . blame me for the artistic work . mine was special because he was tall and has specs . the rest were all like peewees . but in real life . i think nazirul looks the best . i like ho0k ! i mean . it came up to me all over on a sudden . pretty scary but its okay . sue says ho0k looks like a nerd ! sampai hati kan ? then . . dalam hati . . i felt like saying . mine is just simply decent with a funny quacky voice . quiet . spiky hair . and cute . . he is not a geek . the geek is that syafiq . not fair . aku tak hina si syafiq lagi . hais . had my oral just now . malay oral . tamn mr zul . he mistook me for hidayah . haha . lucky mariam corrected it . hahaa . well . i'm going off . b y e e e !

in my black grass ;
2:53 AM

Monday, August 01, 2005

we both apologized . =))

he's reactions just made me feel so frustruated . at least i CARED . hais . felt quite happy arghs . =))
hope you like my screaming invidelities . or whatever the name is . ahaas . okay ar . i wanna study .

in my black grass ;
5:26 AM

heys .

i'm so bored . felt so pissed by syafiq .

weik . ak0 tak herans lar gan ka0 . kl0 apa yang tulis pat nick ka0 tu benar . allhamdullilah sajers ar . ka0 mlebihs sak . ak0 panggil mujerzuela je pe sa . ka0 nak mlebihs ni apa sal ! ak0 tak main "even2" ni sumer . ka0 tak heppy gan ak0 p0n appa ak0 herans banget sak . ka0 tak heppy gan ak0 . ak0 tak heppy gan ka0 . cukup ar sia ! ka0 asik nak ungkits jer . sumer ak0 yang bersalah ar nie . ka0 yang brek gan ak0 tapi ka0 cam nak make ak0 feel bad . gi mamp0s lar , jantan . ak0 senang hid0p lar tanpa ka0 . fahmi anggap kawan ak0 p0n ka0 nak heran . ka0 ni appa siots . t0lak nafsu sikits ar . ka0 benci ak0 p0n ak0 nak buat appa sak . eh . ak0 dah malas lar nak bob0al gan ka0 . buats sweh ajer siots .

listening to have you ever - brandy . what a nice song . hais .

have you ever loved somebody so much ,
it makes you cry .
have you ever needed something so bad .
you can't sleep at night ?
have you ever tried to find the words ,
but they don't .
come out right .
have you ever . have you EVER .

=))
chat with sheihron and jamilah just now . jamilah look pretty like that . seriously ! very pretty . talk to her for a while . about QASSY . ahaa . talk to sheihroun about junyuan secondary3 rugby boys . ahaa . kata bosans ! is it true that syafiq IS hospitalised . well . i don't know . =)) i don't care either . suckka . eh . see lah ! i get carried away already . i need to study for my geography common test tomorrow !

good luck all fellow DUMBmaians !

in my black grass ;
3:04 AM