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Thursday, July 28, 2005
sLUT - LeSS
gonn' make this post short since the previous post was tamn long . well . Syafiq called me a SLUT . HE called me a PELACUR . HE called me SHORT . HE called me LONGGAR . who the fcukking hell is he ? konon badan kau besar ak0 tak0rts ar sia . uuh . tak0rts arghs . eh Syafiq pyar mak ar , MUJERZUELA . unless you know Spanish . =))
okay . Q's really fricked me out . she's with my uncle . uncle who ? UNCLE MIKE ! like . oh my total fricking goush . haha . he looks like a bangla to me . wakakaka .
just now leparks for a while . the jannah's boi smile at me . cam kerek sia . hais . but atleast he smiles . dah kenal muka dah . ahahax . well . dah penarts lerr . 0kays .
i swearrs ttuh g0rrd ttuh unbreakk mii harrt annd brekk hiis b0nes .
he's durr MUJERZUELA .
in my black grass ;
5:47 AM
Monday, July 25, 2005
hello .
hais . yes . computer still got spyware . my worthless dad promised to download spybot . tapi putuskan janji . hais . he asked for a breakup . okay . i'm okay with it . serious . i cried once . only once . which i did . i cried myself to sleep . now i feel like . i lost my friends . my hiim . my hope . my confidence . my future . i didn't know what was i thinking . sue made me frust . so i threw my phone at her . i just can't take it anymore with her . there's just something bothering me 'bout her . arghs . she and her stupid ween and dayah . oh - no . i'm not jelous . hopefully , they think i'ma " run back to them " . 'cause they think i don't have any friends . arghs . i know Tasha is damn lame and Mariam is a loudmouth . i just chill with Yanti . i tried fitting in . but nahs . hais . i lost my hope . i feel so . ALONE in the world . so left out . my confidence . i'm too quiet around these days . TOO QUIET . that's not me . i feel so . alone . no ones here . i'm just a kid . life's like this . why does it always have to be unfair . that's not cool . my future . i thought everything i had would be together . but it just made me slip away . i'm not having a bad day . . i'm having a bad July . crying won't help . Afzal didn't help too . hais . my heart feels so broken . yet i keep it all to myself . who else is there gonn' hear me out . so i guess . . i'll fess it up in this blogspot of mine .
i thought i could have everything forever . but nothing i had lasted . i lost him . them . it . crying didn't help . no one did help me . i wish i could share it with anybody . but i think i'm all left out . i wonder if y'all know how it feels to be LEFT OUTSIDE ALONE . i'm so alone . i'm vindicated . hais . isn't there anyone out there . i think i'll just keep my deep sorrows to myself . even my heartbeat is slowing down . if i die , that would be my destiny . but i don't think i'm destined to be . .
been wondering if i could remake a blogskin . something deadly . haunting . but definetely not emily the strange . too local . hais .
29o6 * 23o7 .
omg . porn ! buias .
in my black grass ;
5:59 AM
Friday, July 22, 2005
hey . sorry for not posting for a long , long time . there's a spyware attacking my pc . yeah . i sneak onto the internet . hais . eh . its irritating . so . i'll post when my computers restored . muarchiees .
in my black grass ;
6:39 AM
Monday, July 18, 2005
doink - ies .
hello . kekeke . listening to ass like that . mvc never give mvc for ass like that . hais . today . racial harmony day for damai . wore a punjabi suit . got praised by some teachers . oh shucks . kekes . took loads of pictures with ween and sue . got loads . here's one . if its too big . kekeke . the teachers didn't mind me putting the digi cam on the table . who cares . kekes . no one seems to be online . hais . so bored . khairBD says today got rugby match . i'm not so sure . i don't even care . kekeke . well , tomorrow gonn's be another ordinary day for this girl . hais . i feel so lazy nowadays . don't feel like chatting with anybody . i just mostly go friendstering . its not l0ike syarfique's gonn be online . hais . chatting with Q.Zee .
haha . this one . is my favourite ." 1 .2 . 3 " . haha . ween looks so fake . we're all so childish . just now me , sue and ween laugh like what sia . hani and her friends were walking . we were just about to strike a pose . . i heard the flush . it was all . taik batu . i laugh like some pyscho kid . sue also laugh . i think hani terperanjat . kekekes . farah wear that outfit . looks nice on her . very nice . jepon with short hair . then just now . saw some Arabs . and one Indian . nabeel . that azhar guy in 3a3 . sulhi . keke . alot ar . most of them wear punjabis and cheongsam . hehe . had an okay day today . =))
the snapshot when we all laughed like hell . -->
oh well . wanna go off . buais . err doink - ies .
in my black grass ;
1:22 AM
Sunday, July 17, 2005
doink . doink . doink -;
kekekes . from ass l0ike that is doing . doing . doing . blehs . kekes . today is Sunday . well , i can't believe i'm saying this but . i'm so looking forward to school . give me silent prayers of having a good day tomorrow , please . happy 13th birthday to Harry . ahahacks . i told him . he's still not old enough to buy his own cigarettes . kekeke . tomorrow wearing a *beep* . you guys look out for what i'm wearing ! kekeke . i think i'm wearing heels . yay . i can be "taller" . kekeke . agnes no fair . she tell what i'm wearing . blehs . sians ! why tell leihs . kekeke . okay . stop all this crap . listening to "bad day" . whooosiies ! you had a bad day . you hear a sad song . err doink . doink . doink . chatting with a bunch of peopleS . today also a bad day . headache . argh . slept on the couch just now . hais . dad gave 50 bucks . to buy food . for me and sister . i want 4 bucks . to buy battery . can take snapshots . yay-sie . well . i'm going to end my day's babble here . err doink . doink . doink .
in my black grass ;
1:30 AM
Friday, July 15, 2005
hais . hello . so bored . eating maggie . asam laksa . drinking coke . not chatting with anyone right now . i'm not in the mood . somehow , feeling depressed . for no specific reason . so bored . and its almost 4pm . hais . been listening to Stolen and We Belong Together . repeatingly . hais . so bored . sue and ween dropped by my house . play with irfaan and ween pinjam baju . hais . it looks nice on her . hais . me , yellow colour . hers is darkblue . sue's is black . we're not gonn' tell what we'll be wearing . kekeke . spoil the fun . let's say . we're wearing costumes . i'm yellow . but no shoes . damai sucks . no high heels . no slippers . no sandals . then what . school shoes . sians . i got high heels . no sandals but got slippers . you expect me to wear my pump shoes . sucks . what to wear . i'm sir-ter-ass ! hais . okay . get a grip you , girl pyscho . haha . okay . i changed my friendster . not account . haha . my pictures . and . i'm not using those "step cute" language . gget miie ? . hahacks . step cute , right ? kekeke . my friendster is ' UNappreciated . kekeke . gambar , muka step . konon pakai shades . tapi in the end . nampak bra strap . i'm such a pyscho ! kekes . yay . looking forward to cheerleadings . rawks ! i've always wanted to be a cheerleader . besides , everybody knows , i have a good voice . keke . even Mr Saiful knows i have a loud voice . my teachers recognise my screaming too . pyscho . whahaas . today also no npcc . brilliant . if have , i'll kill hafezzah and farhana . oh well . this is long enough . haha . wongbo praised me . i never kembang but i kembang hidung . me and keewee got praised . like shit that wongbo is . hahacks . chatting with .:»*«[DE](106)AciK_PapaKeciK-Black Dice Fan»*«:.™ Match On Monday Against Bukit Batok Sec [84/85 slayer] . hahax . rashiT . no lah . acik . kekes . okay lar . buaiis . [ 29 ]
in my black grass ;
1:26 AM
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
hi . sorry , yesterday didn't blog . okay . hais . yesterday had fun . chat with jamilah and acik . kekek seh . kita ber- kut0k . kekes . yesterday went to buy some paper . me , ween and sue colour sepasang . kekes . now eating . what leftover my mum put inside the fridge i take out . so i use the frying pan . and cook the noodles . dee 's fried noodles , refried . kekes . tastes good . i put soya sauce also . kekes . drinking coke . hais . been listening to stolen - jaysean since just now . hais . you stole my heart . hais . today had an okay - okay day . hrmm . okay ar . lazy to type long - long . no benefit . chey . keke . hrmms . syafiq , when is your birthday ? i think i forgotten . hehes . remember , mine is o8o9 . don't anyone dare sab0 me . okay ? kekes . okay . b y eee .
in my black grass ;
1:27 AM
Sunday, July 10, 2005
hey . listening to behind these hazel eyes by kelly clarkson repeatingly . hais . i love syafiq . i'm so crazy . i admit . hais . quite in a good mood . my maths , almost done . hais . my leg got cut . hurts . bled just now . but now i let the blood dry . i won't touch it . hrmm . you think my mum will write me a letter to excuse myself for skipping pe ? i really hate pe nowadays . my leg got itchy got pain . hais . never mind . i'll just go drag my butt to pe . i'm so lazy . hais . here i am . once again . i'm torn into pieces . chey . padahal masih perfect seh dengan syafiq . wakakaka . hrmm . zulfadly is rather quiet with me . so is harry . hehe . yay . wakakaka . hrmm . tomorrow hope nothing bad will happen between me and syafiq . pray hard for me , alright you guys ? hrmm . edited some pictures just now . the one we took on friday . me , sue and ween . hehe . we look so . step cute . haha . check it out on my friendster . kekes . hrmm . okay ar . the song making me depressed . b y eee .
in my black grass ;
4:04 AM
Saturday, July 09, 2005
hey . sorry yesterday didn't blog . forgotten . haha . had a group conversation yesterday . with acik , khair , qas and jamilah . haha . quite fun though . haha . never knew qas could be this funny . hrmm . later monday i jos his kepala . haha . he was like . being a jerk . he said he tak kenal jamilah . if i was jamilah , i would say . kau tak kenal sua . so like , siapa jamilah . siapa qas . hrmm . just now madrasah did arab . so boring . hies . now i'm home . chatting with you guess who ! zulfadly . remember him ? east coast . twentytwo may ? yeah . radeon prince . haha . he no longer with his "girl" . too bad . whahaas . you know , everysince my boii not online , got some guys mengatal with me . or tired to be gatal around with me . they use " i - u " language while i use " aku - kau " . sians . like , i already have a boii , let me get to him , not you . whahaas . guys like izzat . smatrep . ada lah eh . geli aku . okay ar . i want to play with irpan . b y eee !
in my black grass ;
10:10 PM
Friday, July 08, 2005
hi . just finished bathing . just now go npcc . i can't say its tough because it wasn't as harsh as before . i can't say its fun as it was rather tough . get my point , ya . hrmm . did pt . they spray water on us . baru tengah lek lek . haha . thought i lost my skirt . silly , stupid me . it wasn't hanging inside . it wasn't hooked onto the hanger . i swear ! haha . konon manja ar gan nco si dektu . whahaas . tired ar just now . my left arm still hurts . serious . but i managed to do pumping and all . wakakaka . haha . i look at my boii just now . managed to pinch him . i think it hurts . i know i pinch apuiiee . hrmm . tired ar sia . haha . aku ; duey . surya ; marsiah . dayah ; susie . ween ; dia . haha . had fun just now in school . played in music class . goofed off . wrote a long essay during english about reasons why schools should start later in the day . i had lots of good points . no need to skip breakfast . suffiecent time for everything . but no excuses for coming in late . and school end at around 2 or 3 . more to the good points than bad points . hrmm . then history . told wongb0 i lost my history . i really did ! then kwa came in late . less than 5 minutes , the bell rang . we never touched the book . he just scolded us . haha . recess , as per normal ar . saw my boii . spit . disgusting ar . then got science . experiments was great . i like the experiment a . kita dengar suara 'pop' sound . haha . so jakon . tried like , 3 times . haha . the magnesium thingy did half way and do the practical blindly . haha . go malay class . wore nas' specs . haha . decenCE . haha . love the specs but i don't use degree . haha . konon perfect vision . padahal tak bleh differenciate bus number 21 and 22 . haha . okay ar . tired ar . [ serious ] . till now . by eee .
in my black grass ;
4:26 AM
Thursday, July 07, 2005
there SHE go making a mess . all around school making me stress . i need to get this off my chest . and if her bu ch-s want some then they'll be next . it really ain't that compicated . y'all wannabes all "konon" frustruated . you want some of s hiit . come on . let's make it . someday let's see whose really gonna make it . pengcot . konon panggil ak0 gi toilet . abei pangil ako sorang . korang geng konon . mepek seh . lek sua . tuduh asal boleh . konon aku tau sak blok maner . klau kau sendirik cakap blok aku . tak semestinya aku yang tulis pe . kau terbiat sak . tuduh asal boleh . nak kena kan aku je . mana tau . aku bukan dalam dunia nie sorang pe yang benci ni sumer . nangis tu lakon jer . konon air mata bleh menitis bgitu cepat . konon nangis bleh sempat ketawer . korang sumer UNGKiT . hal dah lepas nak dapatkan balek . klao dorang sumer tak heppy gan aku . sal dorang tak konfron aku . asal lak kau mebok . t0k shit only . girlfight tak girlfight . malas mau layan . nanti insyaAllah aku kan hang kau . this time aku bawak gang aku abe kau kena tinggalkan gang kau tu . fair ?
fuck that bitch . aku tak bersalah . nk kenakan aku konon . blok mana . lah . klau si ex-ad'ars ada prob gan aku , kau tak yah mebok pe . kau ingat si hani bukan kawan ku pe . kau ingat aku benci si farah pe . pepek ar . kau ungkit sak . pentingkan jubo orang lain sak .
hies . hehe . got to touch petak's head . so . rough . [ biasa ar ] . haha . almost cubit-ed syafiq . haha . tangan basah nah . aiyoh . hies . no mood to talk ar . rabiah took my mirror !
in my black grass ;
12:15 AM
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
hies . i'm not angry anymore . just sad . hies . syafiq , i love you . been listening to fall to pieces since just now . hies . fiyfee , sue and ween came my house just now . hehe . we plan ar . haha . then they go home . then i frust just now . hrmm . so bored . chatting with wani . hrmm . yeah , these few days slack in attitude but straight for my studies . my mood , not level . always angry by day . cry to sleep at night . nobody seems to care . * shrugs * .
seconds . minutes . hours . days . weeks . months . years . eternity or infinity .
can i know how long we can last .
i want to be serious this time .
i don't take no jokes about it .
i want to be made . made new .
i want you to be the only person that can change me .
i just want to be by you're side .
i wish things between us would last forever .
i wish you can define what's love for me .
take my hand .
lets walk together .
we'll make it , i swear .
i want us to last forever .
in my black grass ;
3:00 AM
no mood . not gonna post too much . really pissed with h iim . i don't wanna talk about it . fiffiie , suziie and weeniie came to my house . sister came back early . no biggy . freaking pissed . i don't want to talk about it . maybe later i post .
in my black grass ;
1:47 AM
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
hiie . whee . aiyoh . sorry for the gunther song . i also didn't notice . s0e tau . malas lah nak tukar balik . then i must recopy and paste the code AND resize it . malas . lagu okay perr . wakakaka . hrmm . was so pissed with h iim just now . was so fc uked up yet i remained cool towards the problem . never picked up the phone because my phone silent mode abey tak sedar . sorry tau , boii ! then i tried to call him . at night , just now . tak angkat . tu lah . nasib aku . hies . i listen to i'm with you . siak ar . nobody likes to be alone . whoah . hehe . listening to fall to pieces , continuously . hrmm . you tried to say the things that you can't undo . i pray that we make it though . and i don't wanna fall to pieces . i just wanna sit and stare at you . hies . oh yeah . sorry yesterday tak online abe tak post . sis play comp ar . yesterday go jurong . i'm black . yucksie . hehe . saw this kak from 3a3 . yeah . i think she related to isamuddin . cause i saw that lil' rascal . hies . today almost slept in class , again . hies . i don't wanna fall to pieces . i don't wanna talk about it . i don't want a conversation . i want you only lah . you really want me to call out to you . you want me to say your name out loud . you want me to really tell you how much i feel for you . you want . cause i can . just say the word . i will . i need you . i never talked to you . i feel so dead without you - boii . you're always on my mind . sometimes it hurts , i have to cry . you know not . all you do is lepak with your chai chee gang . hrmm . up to you lah . sorry pon whatever ar . hrmm . wanna know how you feel . cause i don't want to fall to pieces . ekh . asal post sumer fall to pieces . hrmm . whatever lah ekh , boii . if you really read what i've posted . do sms me . sorry ar . prepaid tinggal 2.98$ . i can't reply . but i'l try to call you . 1543secs left . so , i can call you ar . i love you very much , boii . i'm in love with you . [ i think so ] . hrmm . okay lah . i wanna go friendstering . -buaiiz-
in my black grass ;
6:34 AM
Sunday, July 03, 2005
hello there . the angel from my nightmare . the shadow in the background of the morgue . hehe . my baby came home a day early . he came back yesterday night . yay . hehe . i miss him so much . whahaas . i wish i could just hug him tightly . hrmm . i wish i could . i miss you . hrmm . just now went to bedok interchange with mumma and faan . go eat first . saw that huda sial . i meant . kuda sial . haha . then went walk walk . saw this very nice coverse shoes . 39bucks . but high cut . not nice if i wear . i'd be looking shorter . hies . then mum asked me if i wanna buy new school shoes . i said yah . since my kappa now has gold sides . why not . she wants to buy those cloth type . so common . the shoes . hies . i want sleese . to match ween and sue . but i later kotorkan kasut ar . next time lah . went to giant also . nothing there . then now i'm back . once again . hrmm . tommorow going jurong , swimming . i'm not fat alright . i'm not slim also . but my body never see babat . haha . i just hate the swimming costume . so big . then cannot see my sexy body . haha . oh no . my hair . kena chlorine . that would be damage to my hair . oh no . damn . hopefully i take care about my skin tone . i don't wanna end up like sheihron . kekeke . chatting with my two beautiful boys . my boii and bitchy zyklon . haha . yeah . bitchy zyklon . i am the basterd . he is the bitch . hehe . my abang bitchy zyklon . kekeke . well , i'm going off . byeee . hehe . uhh . i hope hanis plan will go on smooth . i want to go chalet . mumma let me go . but cannot overnight there . yeah baby . yeah baby . yeah . byeeee !
in my black grass ;
4:13 AM
Saturday, July 02, 2005
hey . i'm so bored . my baby's offline . hies . he's not even in singapore . hies . he's in batam . so bored .waiting for him . waiting . waiting . show me the meaning . of being lonely . is this the feeling . i need to walk with . tell me why . i can't be there where you are . there's something missing . in my heart . there's no where to run . i have no place to go . surrender my heart . body and soul . hies . when he gone ar . someone nak kenal2 with me . puh-lease . hehe . at least he knows Khairullah and Ms Azleen . hrmm . bored . ain't no sunshine when he's gone . its not warm when he's away . ain't no sunshine when fiq's gone . and that boy's just gone too long . everytime , he goes away . hrmm . its been too long and i'm lost without you . what i'm gonna do . said i've been needing you . wanting you . wondering if your're the same and whose been with you . is you're heart still mine . i wanna cry sometimes . i miss you .
you went to batam . miss you in a way . straight from yesterday . you up and left me . we were close friends . also lovers . did everything . for one another . now that you're gone is that i'm lost without you and i . gotta leave me and i'm suffering now and i . come back . to me . can you hear me . calling for you .
hiesh . i really no mood to post . no mood . no mood . no mood . i don't wanna fall to pieces . hrmm . i miss you so much . i just can't help it lately . hrmm . hies . today boring . went for tuition at around 11 . penat tau . do ratio and proportion . boring . hies . so tired . i'm going to watch tv ar . hies . i miss you . miss you . miss you . come back to me with open arms tau . love you no matter where you are . miss you no matter it was just yesterday . hies . byeee .
in my black grass ;
3:35 PM
