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Monday, July 25, 2005

hello .

hais . yes . computer still got spyware . my worthless dad promised to download spybot . tapi putuskan janji . hais . he asked for a breakup . okay . i'm okay with it . serious . i cried once . only once . which i did . i cried myself to sleep . now i feel like . i lost my friends . my hiim . my hope . my confidence . my future . i didn't know what was i thinking . sue made me frust . so i threw my phone at her . i just can't take it anymore with her . there's just something bothering me 'bout her . arghs . she and her stupid ween and dayah . oh - no . i'm not jelous . hopefully , they think i'ma " run back to them " . 'cause they think i don't have any friends . arghs . i know Tasha is damn lame and Mariam is a loudmouth . i just chill with Yanti . i tried fitting in . but nahs . hais . i lost my hope . i feel so . ALONE in the world . so left out . my confidence . i'm too quiet around these days . TOO QUIET . that's not me . i feel so . alone . no ones here . i'm just a kid . life's like this . why does it always have to be unfair . that's not cool . my future . i thought everything i had would be together . but it just made me slip away . i'm not having a bad day . . i'm having a bad July . crying won't help . Afzal didn't help too . hais . my heart feels so broken . yet i keep it all to myself . who else is there gonn' hear me out . so i guess . . i'll fess it up in this blogspot of mine .

i thought i could have everything forever . but nothing i had lasted . i lost him . them . it . crying didn't help . no one did help me . i wish i could share it with anybody . but i think i'm all left out . i wonder if y'all know how it feels to be LEFT OUTSIDE ALONE . i'm so alone . i'm vindicated . hais . isn't there anyone out there . i think i'll just keep my deep sorrows to myself . even my heartbeat is slowing down . if i die , that would be my destiny . but i don't think i'm destined to be . .

been wondering if i could remake a blogskin . something deadly . haunting . but definetely not emily the strange . too local . hais .

29o6 * 23o7 .

omg . porn ! buias .

in my black grass ;
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