lalaa-land

2005-12-30T21:36:00.000-08:00

heeeee. my new blog simple. only got picture of me. agagaga. later i put haikal's picturr. myNEWBLOG.

2005-12-29T06:38:00.000-08:00

hey. been busy these days. went out. today went out with my darrl. shafiq. an. and a very cute couple, my darrl's couz and her boi. went to bugis. saw my couz, nazirah. she pretty siah. we were at bugis street. then go kedai bag-bag. an sit on a stool. then my darrl gi pangku atas. then i also ikot ar. then she suddenly depan mata. paiseh man. then we go walk from bugis street to town. quite tiring ar. but it wasn't so far. then go esplanade. but before that. me and an split cash, buy the chocz nyer marshmellow. nice. then go rooftop. then got my darrl's couz's neighbour and friend. i don't know ar. one small and sweet. the other one like rugged. then at 8 go belah. go take 196. stop at bedok. then we all split! my darrl sent me home. ahaha. not my fault he go follow me inside the lift. then we kissed. taaching. ahaa. today alot of hugging and kissing. agagaga. i stop here ar!

2005-12-26T00:03:00.000-08:00

hee. ytd never post. ytd went to bedok int. got a "bazaar". aha. then go sengkang. go kalana's crib. we ate cake. nek pau and shida's birthday. yummy cake. then go watch hanyut's telemovie. hoho. lame siah. my parents now keeping a close eye on me. babi. aha. now i'm at my nenek's crib. using my aunt's comp. my uncle tunang-ing. aha. well, wish him luck ar. i got to go ar. tehee. well, haikal is cute. whoever he is..

2005-12-23T23:58:00.001-08:00

hey. making this post short. went to a family picnic. it was at 9. came at 11 'cause irfaan woke up late. went to pasir ris. nothing much there. just argue with a-ee. he is so immature. what a brat. my hands got ropeburn. aha. well. okay ar. i'm tired. tootles. yeah zahrin. you know i miss you. you suchha ass, make me upset. love you loads. missing you more. missing you really hurts me. love you, md zahrin bin md yusoff.

2005-12-23T01:01:00.000-08:00

hello. aha. ytd's post not interesting. i know. lagu nsync. i know lagu "classic". aha. but, it's suchha nice song. today's post short gila. aha. ytd the smackdown. kiwak. randy orton asik jatuh-jatuh seh. then he keep escaping. i hate you, UNDERTAKER! kao gyler. kao syko. but kinda glad he chokeslammed kane. hoho. randy still rocks!

2005-12-21T23:28:00.000-08:00

There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home
Oh, seems so long ago you walked away
Left me alone
I remember what you said to me
You were acting so strange
and maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change

Was it something I said
To make you turn away?
To make you walk out and leave me cold
If I could just find a way
To make it so that you were right here
But right now..

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains..

You're gone..
You're gone..
Baby you're gone
Girl you're gone, baby girl, you're gone..
You're gone..
You're...

I don't wanna make excuses, baby
Won't change the fact that you're gone
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know?
Time is passing so slowly now
Guess that's my life without you
and maybe I could change my every day
But baby I don't want to

So I'll just hang around
and find some things to do
To take my mind off missing you
and I know in my heart
You can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I Drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

Oh what'll I do
If I can't be with you
Tell me where will I turn to
Baby where will I be
Now that we are apart
Am I still in your heart?
Baby why don't you see?
That I need you here with me

I've been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I've drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

Been sitting here
Can't get you off my mind
I've tried my best to be a man and be strong
I drove myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains

But the truth remains.

2005-12-21T00:55:00.000-08:00

fuck. make this fucking post, short. don't care if any of my relatives or sister is reading this. i hate my mom. whore. sial. celaka. hate her. i feel like running away from home. i don't care. so fucking wasted in this fucking family with this fucking sial. sial! i'm better on my own. mother or not. who are you to hit me sial. you have no rights. i don't even want you to touch me sial. i don't even want to look at you. sial. hit me for no reasons. hit me when it's not my fucking fault. goodbye you fucking ass. hate you. and that's final. i've had it with you. let this be a sin, but God knows how i really fucking feels. -the hatred and gore from my deep insides to the fucker who i don't know, why made me alive.

2005-12-19T21:49:00.000-08:00

heyo.

okay. not making this post a long one. hrmm. ytd i got on the phone with dzul. i know how to activate and deactivate my free incoming calls! finally siah. quite worth it ukh. i activate just for his pretty face and our KEmendak-ism. talking to him, so. horrible. i'm small and short. so what! being big isn't a defence! it isn't. yeah. big show might be bigger and heavier then rey mysterio. but at survivor series. rey mysterio eliminated big show tau. being small has it's specialties. (= so, it's gajah and tikus. well. bored. my sister watching kuch kuch hota hai. i don't know how. but i know she watching. hais. well, khai just came back from terangganu. huahua. today syafiq also come back from kl, i think. well, syafiq! my days so bored without you! because you never text me ar. boring tao. nak harapkan zahrin and sulhi. pooi. well. my thoughts are getting rusty. i want to get some coca cola in the fridge. aha. eh, can anybody, besides sulhi. tell me. is there such a word called "COKING". ahaha. what only sulhi.. well. carmen electra loves coca cola too. ain't that nice. well. till now. and when time stops. i will still be DEEEEEE. haha. and i think got no hope to quit smoking. ahaha. byeeee!

2005-12-18T23:54:00.000-08:00

heyo. didn't blog ytd right?

well. internet was down. ytd went to plentong. go giant. go shopping. then went home by tuas. jam gyler babi. one and a half hours waited siah. the custom say me and irfaan looked different in the passport. kiwak. bedek siak. then went home. go drive past orchard road. see the lights. i asked my mom if i can go out once in a while and go home at around nighttime. she let siah. freedom. tehee. wells, i have the freedom. now want to go out with my peeps. but don't know with who. anyone of my PEEPS. free this few days? bored ukh. well. ytd never watch legally blonde. haha. who cares. watch kuch kuch hota hai. whohoo. then at 11.45, watch survivor series. first match was THE GAME vs. NATURE BOY in last man standing. hHh won. then got THEDORE LONG vs. ERIC BICHOFF. thed won. the boogeyman attacked eric. stupid. TRISH STRATUS still keep her title. she deft. MELENA. JOHN CENA also keeps his WWE title. kurt angle lost. haha. U SUCK. U TOOT. TOOT TOOT. haha. i don't remember anymore matches. but i LOVED the last event. team SmackDown vs. team Raw. smackdown won. DOH.

RANDY ORTON. LASHLEY. JBL. REY MYSTERIO AND BATISTA(smackdown leader)
VS.
CHRIS MASTERS. CARLITO. KANE. BIG SHOW. HBK( raw leader )
rko and hbk start first. whohoo. then lashley was first to out. then kane. then batista. then bigshow. then carlito. jbl threw hbk. then hbk became weak. then chris masters out. then rey mysterio. then jbl pull hbk into the ring. then jbl kena sweetchin music. then randy and hbk again. randy won. whohoo. mr RKO!! loves the legend killer. then undertaker came. buat spoil the moment. haha. i also confused who was out. but i know rey mysterio did good with his 619.

well. i stop here. bye! merry christmas.

2005-12-17T04:28:00.000-08:00

you love somebody else, but i wish i could just Object that.

i'm always the RAGDOLL. play me with kisses. and fool me with love. hurt me with no fear. and Leave me with no GOODBYE.

tehee. just something i cooked up last night. hurhur. today stayed home all day. chatting with this guy i so called "love", dzul. chatted with hanii and farah just now. missed them siah. i feel sorry for hanii. her parents too harsh. saddening. kinda was like. damn it. she so lucky. she got chicken little. dating ar. haha. she said that sul cute. haha. sort of ar. sul's face. have no comments about it. damn it. sul got dearest. i think i know who. (= did a pathetic survey just now. my five closest friends. sue. ween. zahrin. khairul. sulhi. hais. miss each of them. except sul. hais. syafiq's already off to kl. sweet of him to text me before he reached malaysia. he texted me at woodlands checkpoint. missing him already. i wrote faiz a testimonial just now. i told him that i was quitting npcc. he sounded like. upset because the squad getting lesser and lesser. i feel bad too. i don't know what kak faj or her friends will say ar. they got that chipmunks. sorry but jembalang mata hitam going off. i feel sad too. hais. either join comp club, drama, or library. lame choices siah. but, i gotta support myself in a co-corricular activity. hais. well. feeling upset about quitting. so, i won't continue.. bye then.

2005-12-16T04:26:00.000-08:00

heyo.

today was a good day. okay, a fun day. finally went to buy school books. went at around twelve. hundred and fourty plus dollars only siah for my books. sat with my honey kwrumbs and her sister. i think her name is wati. ahaha. then went home. then played the computer for a while, until 2. then siap. going out with just a friend. so wear something simple. wore my beige polo tee and my black jeans. well, like what only, look for a place to eat. in the end. we ate at long john. he made me laugh all the way. haha. then after eat. we talk-talk. we looked at each other's ezlink card. haha. he looked so.. GEEKY! i laughed until my eyeliner smudged and he even offer tissue! haha. then his big brother and his cousin came. they both very farnie. his cousin knows my name and know where i live. and knows izzat. his big brother looked younger then him. haha. then they all say they want to go eat. then me and sul pun belah! he rang the bell siah. the bell where if we gave good service thingy. kiwak. kuat siak. then i think we walked all over bedok interchange and central. we talked about ASSes and "where do you want to go?" and "anywhere but here". then it was about 6. we sat at mcdonalds. we figet-figet. he bully me siah. babi ar YOU! bilang mama abang bully adik. haha. sat until like. 6.30. then i had to go home.. go the bus line-up there. sat at the railing there. he just leaned on it. missed 228 because it was very full. missed 66 because masih tak puas. so the next 228 tak ramai orang. then took bus. and trembled all the way home. he now batt low.. so, never sms him. sms SYAFIQ! instead. have fun at kl! hurhur. well, "he"/"him" should remain unidentified. i guess only SYAFIQ! knows. tehee. those kisses meant nothing. even he agreed! i'll never regret the whole of today. won't regret not going out with him too. i don't care if his DEAREST gets angry at me! haha. well, it's been suchha long time since i felt kisses. i missed kisses on my hands, forehead, cheeks and lips. tehee.(= well, just now, nothing happened laa. i think. i know i really love today. i want to go out with him some other days too. then we can act sarcastic and annoy each other. come on, kiss me. ghahahahaaaaaa. okay. so today, may God bless Md Zahrin Bin Md Yusoff. happy birthday you ASS! i hope everybody had fun today. I KNOW I DID! wakakakakaka.

2005-12-13T21:13:00.000-08:00

everytime i think about you, you'd coincidentally give me a call. i don't believe in love at first sight but i'm starting to feel weak. i think i love you. but i hardly know you. =)) i'm sick of falling in love. knowing it was doubtless and hurtful. i'm sick of just weeks of relationships. i need somebody real. i don't need a relationship to make me happy, seriously. can't i just have one guy to have and hold? somebody to hold my heart and take charge. i'm sick of waiting. i'm not being loved. i'm being hated. i don't need a fucking boyfriend. i need a friend. a real friend! i'm not saying the friends i have is not enough.. i'm only thirTEEN. no, i'm not looking for the love of my life. that's fucking pathetic and jodoh hanya di tangan Allah. i feel hurt without even being touched. i might be thirTEEN. but i'm not a child no more. =)) stupiid sulhi. think that i really need a lifetime partner. haha.
HERE I AM. PERFECT AS I'M EVER GONNA BE. YOU'LL SEE. LOVE ME FOR ME. STAND AROUND. I'M NOT THE KINDA GIRL YOU WANNA LEAVE. YOU'LL SEE. LOVE ME FOR ME. I'VE BEEN WAITING ALL MY LIFE TO FIND YOU. JUST SO I CAN PUSH YOU AWAY. =)) [ ASHLEE SIMPSON;; LOVE ME FOR ME ]]

I'LL END MY DAYS WITH YOU. I'M TRYING. TO LET YOU KNOW JUST HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME. THIS TIME. I MEAN IT. I JUST LET YOU KNOW JUST HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME. AS SNOW FALLS, ONTO THE DESERT SKY. UNTIL THIS, I MEAN THIS. I MEAN THIS! I'M TRYING, I'M TRYING. TO LET YOU KNOW. HOW MUCH YOU MEAN. BUT THIS TIME. WE'LL SHOW THEM. SHOW THEM ALL. HOW MUCH WE MEAN. UNTIL THE END OF EVERY. . . [MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE;; DEMOLITION LOVER ]]

haha. sumer skip2 the full song. haha. well, demolition lover is one of my ultimate favourite. you're a bitch. but i love you anyway. you can't sing. but you still put me to sleep. haha. well. i'm done for today. uhrm. dear, haikel mana tu?

2005-12-13T01:46:00.000-08:00

whohoo. kinda happy.

went out just now. met faris from the skatepark. go valley8? watch him and his friends play pool. i can't say whose the best. they were all exceptionally good! got one guy, remind me of indra. one remind me of azrin. aha. but they are way cuter. whohoo. i didn't catch their names. tak salah. one of them is haikal. haha. he's cute. all of them are cute. faris not bad ar. i like his eyes. that time. he was tryingna hit the cue ball. the ball jumped and hit my knee siah. tehee. tak baik siak. but he's a really good guy. they all are. they from tanjong katong. ee. too smart for me. =DD listening to love me for me;; ashlee simpson. whohoo. use my RADIOBLOGCLUB juke.blog. haha. went to haikal's house? aha. go watch the guys play comp for a while. i never looked. but someone of them 3 suap me biscuit. haha. then got home. took a cab. stopped at damai bustop. then they go eunos. i would wanna go hang out with them someday. but faris think i'm attached. haha. okay. my so called "boi" is from damai. fifTEEN. haikal. we've been together for 3 months. like. sappa siak jantan tu. yeah. i'm bad at lying last minute. haha. i pray to God, Allah S.W.T, that i would see them some other day. i've been praying alot of things to happen. haha. yeah. i prayed to God before asking an apology to syafiq. haha. alim ak? haha. elek suah. wells. wanna listen to songs. and kacao weween. gudBAI.

2005-12-12T00:58:00.000-08:00

halo peeps.

happy. got this radioblogclub thingy. got free music. whohoo. real music. stupid dumbass girl deleted all my downloaded songs. hmm. bored. not chatting with anybody. malas. whohoo. listen to all the my chemical romance songs. they are so nice! dammit! my favourite is to the end. whohoo. in love with mcr. especially mikey way and frank iero. whohoo. chitchat on the fhone with sulhi ytd. too goody2shoes. ee. too good. but. i miss him. i will wait. btw, i'm broke. hais. aites2. wanna add more songs to my playlist. goodbye my lover! goodbye my friendS!

2005-12-11T01:56:00.000-08:00

hello there.

i'm so glad! i downloaded firefox mozilla. whohoo. it's so much faster then my internet explorer. whohoo. so cool. wells, been working on my new blog. tehee. now registering cbox for my new blog. hrmm. bored. felt so stupid missing syakirin's chalet. but, i don't know her that well. =DD went to my aunt's crib. ceramah at cik edah's crib. was so into ytd's lesson. learnt about the Rasul, Malaikat. whohoo. then. after the ceramah. ate. after eat. sit down at ilya's room. then fariz skatepark called. tehee. asked me if i could go out. aha. come on. my sister has to go home before 8pm and he wants me to go out? haha. fat chance. my mom is nasty. wells. happy birthday KHAIRULNIZAN BIN ABU NAIN! love you loads. haai. i don't like you, like you khairul. i just like khairul. i'm not in love with him, completely. i just love him as a paranormal friend. yeah. khairudin text'd me just now. he called me dear! the second person to call me dear. whohoo. ytd was my dahrling's first day of work. i think. works at a factory near expo. well known because students work there parttime. 8pm to 8am. wells. kinda boring as my dahrling is working. but hey, if he gets paid. we'll finally go out. whohoo. miss him.. loads. maybe 24th december or so, "confirmed" by cik edah. my family's gonna have a picnic! haha. eve of christmas? possible? i'm not sure. kakak yanti in charge. hope it happens. or hope it doesn't. i think. tehee. didn't touched the comp the whole of ytd. watch tv instead. nothing good online anyways. went to watch wwe raw on friday. it was the epi where they gave news about eddie guerrero's death. i cried watching the tribute video. tehee. i cried after seeing chris benoit, rey mysterio and kurt angle cry. hbk didn't cry. i think. and i can't believe melena defeated trish stratus, the wwe woman's champ. oh god. if she win's the belt, and the mnm still hold the tagteam champ belt. i think they're gonna be up to no good. the whole epi was enjoyable when melena got a big kiss from the big show. haha. she was disgusted. but hey, i would want a pro wrestler to kiss me. like, hello. wwe tagteam champ. one of the biggest and fearless wrestlers. i wonder if undertaker is still alive. i could still hear the "tong" "tong". haha. wells. won't blab much. ZAHRIN, I MISS YOU SO MUCH. will i ever see you again?

2005-12-09T05:29:00.000-08:00

halo.

bored for the whole day. but whad to do. hasn't go out since that day i go suntec. lama. today was supposed to go out and meet my dahrling. *winks*. teheex. but he got something on. tamnit. i miss him so much. hehe. no one, never. GUY, called me dear. tehee. suweet argh. wani disagrees about him being cute. oh, come on. he is. only stupidlooking on certain days. hrmm. finally got this deep thought. i am so gonna miss the seniors. those graduating argh. gonna miss my dahrling, amir, wani. but hey, gotta move on. going to be secTWO! can't wait. still haven't bought a pair of sneakers for my feet. haven't bought books. haven't alter skirt. horrible. tehee. going to miss my dahrling! whohoo. i want to be the most well-respected secTWO in damai. chey. macam betul jeh. hurhur. well, i know i won't have a bitchy attitude like dented and dented's friend. i'm not bitchy. people just don't know me yet. that's the fact. whohoo. chatting with my mrlurplurp, khairulnizan bin abu nain! tehee. kinda miss him thou. miss his face. hrmm. wells. ytd, faris called me. faris the budak skatepark who wanted to kenal-kenal with me, called. hahaa. he's fifTEEN. but he schools at tanjong katong sec. i hate smart ass guys. but he's good to talk to. i don't even recalled his face. to think that i AM interested in people who'd approach for numbers. yawn! haha. i miss my dahrling argh. gonna miss him. DEAR, WHERE ARE YOU? you are out there, somewhere. and i am here. with a sorebutt. hais. aites. december got alot of events sia. wanna know?
DEC-
o1. world aids day
o3. hani
o9. tasha
11. mrLurpLurp
16. big brother. ain.
25. christmas.
26. tsunami anni

tehee. okay. got to go.

2005-12-07T02:58:00.000-08:00

i was bored. got bored last night at 1am. stuped woman locked my room. so i couldn't sneak into the room to play the computer. such an ass. locked the door. fargker. wells, i raped something from my phone. old, old thing. . don't need it read it if you don't want to. hais. i think hanii knows who i'm talking about. but. it's an old crush. i hope hanii remembers who "Hook" is. =))

*his real name here*. can never hide the way i feel for you. wants to make you happy. but so impossible. do you even notice me? loived you since the moment i saw you. i still remembered that day. i'd smile in pride. but caress me. it shames. yes, it hurts to loive you. you loive somebody else. but till today, i don't regret about loiving you. you'll never know me Hook. but i really wish you could. saviours to you. you know it! find my name. write it in sand. let the sea wash away this insanity. it's ridiculous. and wait for the moment where everything fades away. loive hurts. -die in fright.

kinda lame. dulu i like to say loive. haha. i like the caress part. haha.

i miss alot of my peeps so much. hanii, even thou we just met a couple of days ago. khairulnizan, i love you. very much. whohoo. i miss zahrin the most. we'd chat at times. but i really, really miss him. hear that big brother? huahua. miss weween gyler. miss dayah indon. miss suzie tuween loads. haha. my sister opened my wallet. saw our neoprint. she said we looked sweet. aww shucks. haha. crazy woman put 3 fake fishes into a plastic tupperware. aha. irfaan really thought got real fishes. since the fish's tail can move. haha. it's so fun to stupidize people. hahacks. want to go. write long, long. boring ar. no one reads it. not alot of people anyways. huahua.

2005-12-05T05:59:00.000-08:00

heyo.
blogging.. haha. had fun just now. went esplanade. suntec city ukh. saw ms azleen. whohoo. hugged her! haha. she gewek ukh. wells. basically went there with dila. farah. syakirin. tasha. chicken little mata sepet. mad. and dila's boi. soe, i dunchknoe his name. okay. went suntec city. told you addie huh. dila's boi ask for one dollar. he play arcade. thought he could win a psp. haha. pathetic ukh. then i gave mr sepet 2dollars. haha. maseh tak menang2 lagi. me and dila were the only ones sitting down. slacking somewhere near the escalator. then saw them play from far. pathetic. semua orang nak psp. playstation portable. haha. paris hilton has it herself. they took a long time lor at the arcade. then we go eat at kfc. some fuckker say kfc tak halal. haha. cibai. then they made jokes while we ate. i gave my cheese fries to the "less fortunate". mad, dilla and her boi ukh. mr sepet go buy he's own food. haha. then dilla say she wanna go home. so her boi tagged along. then mr sepet and mad also. hais. then go where. lao pa sat? haha. then patah balik. go home. took the same bus as dilla they all. haha. gadoh wip tasha about sitting beside farah. haha. in the end. i sat the end of the bus. then mr sepet said that me and mad look alike. i was like. where have. mad? he got jambul and don't really smile alot. then the rest all laugh siah. then mad said why we wear same coloured clothes. pph. none of them likes me. whadafark. haha. gotta admit. hook is so cute. haha. went home. took 66. alone. parents didn't scold. went home bfore 8. not grounded. whohoo. wells. got to go. yea. hani. you totally missed it. no money? you should see dilla. she got no money also tagged along siah. wells. miss you loads. miss schoool too. wells. papi's home. got to go. muwarkhs.

HOOK IS CUTE!

2005-12-04T02:42:00.000-08:00

hrmm. i never blog this past few days. wow. as if i care about what my mind says. as if anybody cares about me. i hate myself for having friends. there's no point anyway. well, my friends are all fake. most of them ukh. pure 100%, cold, shiny, hard plastic. cold; evil, mean. shiny; shallow, selfish. hard; ignorant and nothing gets into them. plastic. just like the mean girls. i don't even want to be cady. nobody fucking cares about anything else. that's the fucking truth. i hate being a girl. sometimes i wonder why i was never an outcast. i should thank god for being alive. but i haven't been thankful enough. fuck this fucking free world! i hate me. i hate u. i hate THEM! yay. i'm getting my consious back. my life is a HAVOC.

i tried to be perfect. it just wasn't worth it. i don't believe it makes me REAL.

Your undying thirst was one I could not quench

I wasn't enough for your desires to love alone

Doomed to watch the world through an empty glass

My heart no longer holds together on its own,

Silver bounds hold it tight in the mangled mess you left

Lying upon the floor as you walked out my door.

Never wasting a second thought on me you moved on

Forgetting the innocents you stole, the heart you broke

The vacant shell of a girl you once claimed to love

______

2005-11-30T05:00:00.000-08:00

heyo.

haha. just dropping by to say i changed my skin. hurhur. what can i say. i'm easily bored. haha. wells. i think i'll blog later..

2005-11-29T19:47:00.000-08:00

ola.

haha. kinda bored. kinda sad too. listening to toni braxton- unbreak my heart. classic, yet so nice. the il divo one is in es spanyol. i think. listening to the song on my hanphone. papi went out addie. reached batam addie. gonna mish pissing him off. hope he'd take care. gonna mish him too. hrmm. i feel sad for iifa. but. this is life. buat bende tak terjadi.. jadi. dunch feel bad aites. you hav mysjunkie. me. your beshties. aites? cheer ups. if you don hav fams. you have friends. your friends. don be upset on tish issue. it was kinda harsh when i read your blog, you know. well. i addie promished to cbrate your burday wip you. cheer up iifa. aites. hmm. bored siah. wokup an hour ago. tehee. like as usual. asik2 nak kluar je. plan break. hrmm. sufr gotta jaga her big bro. maz is sick. fargk siah. so we'r going tomorrow. yaysie. i mish thos yn kids. hurhur. wells. i wanna eat. breakfast i suppose? well. chiao.

take back the sad word "goodbye"
bring back the joy to my life..

life is so cruel without you here beside me.
unbreak my heart. say you love me again.
undo this hurt that you caused
when you walked out the door
and walked down on my life.
uncry these tears..

=)) Copyrite. lagu toni braxton.

2005-11-29T06:05:00.000-08:00

halo.

i'm bored. extremely bored. people just tryinga keep quiets on me these days. wells. when life give you lemons. throw them away. hrmm. it's pouring. not really that heavy. light thunder.. hais. went to johor bahru just now. go giant. went grocery shopping. nothing much there. i was just totally in love with HAPPYDENT and my cambell soup snax. and don't forget. coke. haha. i didn't buy alot uh. nothing there. papi's going overseas tomorrow. don't know where. haha. just now i watched harrypotter gof. dvd. clear siah. 8rm. hurhur. kinda boring. cause i already read the book. i never imagined that voldie had a so called "demonic" face. whats with the slit nosetrills siah. well. barty crouch jr killed his papi. so damn obvious. viktor is kinda keyoot. yerps. to me he is.. kinda. but badan babi. cedric is hot. totally. only now, girls realised who is cedric digg. oh please lor. you guys think you're his. and please lor. me, flinz, cheryl and zabeen reserved him since last year. so. back off. he's hotter in his other pictures. i have alot of his. and you guys have never seen it before. cho chang not keyoot. she's damn ugly. kinda fugly. doesn't look asian to me. nevile weight loss? haha. he and ginny totally fit. and. uh. can somebody tell me. why barty crouch jr got tatoo. and the tatoo can move. scary siah. the sirius appear in the fire thingy kinda lame. i read it in the book. so, expecting. hurhur. can't wait for the harrypotter oftp. harry's got a prophet. ooh. wakakakaka. next year defence against the dark arts teacher is going to be centaur. and he gets killed. and hagrid has a half brother. haha. dad bought doom and exorcism of emily rose too. watching it some other day. hais. maybe tomorrow going out with sufrina. ms vinty. and kalao, insyaAllah, candykid. sufr asked me if i like khairul. wah. want to say i love him also like. wrong ukh? haha. she said that banyak orang nak kan dia. fuh. jelers ako. tao tak? tapi dia cakap khairul suka reject. wah liao. you play VERYhard to get huh? khairul. my keyootie mr nice guy. aiyoh. why are you offline siah. fugger. i mish you. mishes you loads. oh yah. mr germany. i do treat you as a friend. and i respect you as one. but please. i knoe if i made a mistake aites. geez. haha. wells. wasnt online from 5 to 10. watch hp. then go watch ed season finale. wah. she's going out for a whole summer with dennis. why. and ed. one kiss only? hais. you got nice dimples. i love your eyes. i like the previous epi. haha. you videotaped your 'life'. the slenger guy likes diane. budden diane like the tubby. and then they made out on top of the ferris wheel. poor slenger guy. haha. i would want to have a kish on top of a ferris wheel. tehee. then desper housewifes came up. nice. carlos going jail. gabby is pregant. dunch knoe if the lawn mower guy or her husband. bleh dapat aids sak sex 2 owang. haha. susan house kena burnt. kitchen ukh. rex is jelous that bree is going out wip the pharmacist guy. haha. well. now im playink the comp. kinda bored. my sassy lil hani not online. sobs. haha. wells. happy holies to all e muddafargkers!

2005-11-28T01:56:00.000-08:00

hey. its 1.58am. i'm bored. chatting with MOHDzahrin and sally. sms-ing mr germany too. kinda hot. in a dark room where only the pc becomes my light source. papi thinks i'm asleep. my whole family dead already. except me. hais. i'm sorry if i'm hot-tempered ar. its kinda pissing to make somebody remind and think back about their past. sorry if calling your name reminded you of dila. big brother, i never meant to make you feel bad. but i just find it pissing. okay? haha. sms-ing mr germany is so fun. it's like. better then having bestfriends. haha. because my friends and i don't talk about pepek or koyak. haha. he's awesome. i still love mr germany. in many complicating ways. muwarrkhs to mr germany. i'm bored as my dahlynk went to sleep already. khai told me so. i guess he ain't lying about that. why khairul, why? why you left me in the cold dark room. alone and not smiling. not laughing. not telling you i love you. why?! hais. you bastard. probably at dreamland, dreaming of somebody else. hurhur. nasty me. i miss his crazyness. i miss him. one week already since i saw his face. saw khai yesterday. whohoo. haha. khairul keyoot laa. i dunchkare what other people say. he's crazy. its your sewel friend speaking here. hurhur. sally's playing a game right now. probably and i guess so. like this skin? broken doll. i've been changing skins. because of the boredom i had. and i blame it all on khairulnizan bin abu nain! arwgh. i still wanna hug you thou. hmm. i will wait. chayang you. tehee. hmm. so hot we should need some rain in here. tehee. hais. bored siah. big brother keeping quiet on me. geez. hais. i kinda miss hanii. haha. probably because we talked too much. and being with her is so fun. teehee. i'm still finding a perfect pwezzie for my sassy lil hanii. haha. lil. get it. LITTLE. teehee. just turning 13. but not yet. wakakakaka. haha. i miss hunnies. i miss ms krwumbs. ms dew. and ms bunch. these wacko pyscho's rock my world. let's hope we're still the same. hais. i miss mikey too. haha. wells. speaking of uncle. who do you think is cuter? mikey way or frank iero? fyi: members from mychemicalromance. i'm so stuck on both. oh ya. sorry. aaron aziz's blog no more, i think. i took it from the manja mag. teehee. never take kak oni's bloggie. haha. wells. you guys should really visit staying-alive.ORG. its interesting. considering the cartoons are lame. well. if you want to have sex. seal it with a condom first. or go clinic check up if you got aids. hurhur. be safe then sorry. singapore might not be big in population of aids. but don't take advantage. do spread the message across. yep, yep. i hope to be an aids ambassador someday. and i'm kinda volunteering in telling others the message. remember, AIDS HAS NO VACCINE! =)) msDEE will help. one way or another. ikhlas dari hati. teehee. ytd also got to play xbox. for the second time. ferst time was to ruin hafiz's match. then play what lame winning eleven. hafiz got goal. italy vs england. france vs germany? dunchknoe. dunch recall. but i won him twice in the penalty shots. whohoo. bhahaa. wells. i dunch wanna talk too much. cause i did this out of boredom. no one really reads my crappy stories anyways. haha. oh ya. EH MR GERMANY. YOU VISIT MY BLOG. AT LEAST TAG ONCE LA. WHATS THE POINT IN HAVING A TAG IF YOU NEVER TAG. besok pergi pasar heh? wakakaka. okays. i end here.

tataas. chiaos. goodBYE.

2005-11-26T21:28:00.000-08:00

heh. like my skin? not nice uh. changing again. teehee. haha. wells. chatting with sulhi and zahrin. bored siah. haha. ytd went out wip my beloved gal. that would be hani. haha. we went tamp. not much uh. she buy gift box then we go tab. eat at ljs. haha. we sat at the lib. okay uh. talked alot. laughed alot. i had fun uh talking to her. she gerek siah. haha. tmr i going out wip hunni krwumbs. she gonn help me find a perfect pwezzie for ifa. haha. malas seh nak type2. okay ar. pa per nak; tag meh!

2005-11-23T21:59:00.000-08:00

hello there.

you like my skin's song? liberate; slipknot? haha. i know i love it. want to tutop your telinga, tutop ar. tak heran. blog ako. blehx. haha. chatting with this pyscho gal. haha. and abang farhan. geez. haha. i'm bored. OKay. sue's birthday is on the 3rd of Jan. bashing up with the Fersh day of school. me, dayah and ween. and this special 'guest' too. she very good at sabo-ing people. haha. any friends of Suriati Binte Kahar who would like to join us in saboing her on her very birthday; do beep me yaa. we using tepung and telur. just tepung and telur. not our very own urine. some sewel gal thought of saboing her wip that. giler. haha. giler. tepung and telur. sue's burday is ferrsh day of skool. how fortunate to be 14 so fast. haha. hani's burday coming soon too. haha. she just turn 13. haha. okay laa. i stop the birthday thingys here. i got invited to go to this chalet on the eve of new year. i so, don't want to. not really uh. considering got peples i don't know actually want to be with and peples who do sins all the way for the whole year. so. i putted ma resolution list up already. kinda early. but. at least i can prepare for myself. and i can't believe zahrin would laugh when i put in ma list, grow taller. haha. later i add, stop *beep*ing crap. ahaha. wells. i wants to eat. i'm hungry. waiting for either zahrin or khairul to be online. lamer deh.
wells. till now.
still hahaa. liberate!
babaix. toOdles.

2005-11-22T06:52:00.000-08:00

like you ever know the truth and reason for being so Islamic. being rude. revenge? like its all gonna happen. right now i'm going thru my madrasah jhd tauhid book. it says alot about Islam.
Notes;
Erti Allah ada ialah ZatNya ada. Zat ertinya "diri". Zat Allah tidak serupa dengan zat kita. Kita tidak boleh melihat Zat Allah dalam dunia. Siapa yang kata dia kenal rupa Zat Allah, adalah sesat.
right there, i prove my point. okay. my dad wants to use it. chiiaows.

2005-11-22T02:06:00.000-08:00

hey.

sorry long time no post. i've been ignorant to my blog. haha. okay. i talk about yesterday. went out go watch movie. wanna watch harry potter. but sold out. so we went and watch skyhigh instead. me and fauzi hor. i was wearing ma brown boatneck op tee and ma fave jeans, and slippers and no sweater. go there take 22. coincidently took same bus as eddy. i heard his voice and he was on the phone wip farha. sot sia ako. haha. while waiting fo the muvie to start, we go walk2. then i saw sulhi. at ferrsh macam tak kenal seh. he's keyoot thou. then fauzi bought a guitar pick thingy. before that got this crazy fella attack ma cheeks. haha. and that was. jamilah binte jamil. haha. dia giler. she was wip her guy friends uh. haha. then go up. go hang outside the arcade. then saw khairudin, his sister and he's sooo charming brother. haha. that would be khairul. haha. i met alot of ma friends siah. then go watch skyhigh. quite funny uh. will stronghold hancem seh. warren peac is keyoot. haha. then muvie finish'd. saw khairudin again. we talk2 for a while. haha. i can't stop saying haha or even laugh. thanks to khairul. laughing is contagious but i think mine stays permanent. haha. then go home. khairul and din all go watch exorcism. onetwothreefourfivesix! haha. then after the muvie, me and khairul sms'd. haha. we talked about kisses. haha. he likes french kisses too. hahs. i am daring enough to take that. =)) then went online at around 1o.3o. chat wip zahrin, zulBESAR, khairul, weween and joshua. okay. i don't want to talk about my problems online. because i can't trust anyone, anymore. except hunnies, ad'ars and ma beloved chayaang. bhahaaX. then suddenly, this gerr. attitude maciam da koyiak. nak label ako. haha. NO ONE LABELS ME! wad farker your parents are then. shameless and senseless. don be a big fark and label me. God made us equal. what makes y'all so special? pathetic sia. serious siot. peples hate me. i hate them too. it hurts to know that the one you think you love, hates you. and for no reason. haha. now im all in love wip mr khairul. kekekes. nunna HARTS qube. haha. mai ya he. tak tertgok ako harry potter. haish. naseb ako laa. oh, and yaa. i won't break my promise to zahrin. because i stand for myself. and i don't brag about anybody. yeah. when i say forever. i means it. tunggu la sampai akhirat. owang yang celaka pat ako mestiiii kene nyer. haha. khairul taught me not to curse peples. so i wont and i will wait because God knows best. thanks Khairul. i owe you alot for always being there for me. you are a gentleman. a great one too. and u owe me a big slubberish kish.

till now. bye.

2005-11-18T00:44:00.000-08:00

hey. i'm in a situation siah. the ironing board fell onto my pinky toe and the other one. i'm leg retarded. i'll get back at you later..

2005-11-16T23:26:00.000-08:00

DISCLAIMERS AND SLUTS, PLEASE LEAVE.

OKAY. i'm used to this. i can shake this situation off. sure, can. disclaimers should leave before i unbreak what i tried to do for ain. okay. peoples think i step jambu and step cute. please, judge fo yourself. like i said. words can't change me. and everybody has their difficults in life. i guess mine started today. hrmm. i'm bored. chatting wip khairul. trying to let him give me a hug. =PP ain's out. as so as he does, everyday. hrmm. i wonder if ain's free tmr. he's always busy. maybe we'd catch a movie? oh yar. speaking of movies. today is Harry Potter's release in Singapore right? who watch addi? i watch'd the never before scene. hermione and harry kish'd. harry got the what2 dragon. then he took his broom and fly around hogwarts then the dragon ikot. then harry jatoh on the roof. watch it, yaa? okay. my mumma won't shut up. i thinks this is all for today. oh yah. I'M SORRY FOR EDDIE GUERERRO. he used to be my hero. and now he's gone. ='((
The Latino Heat still Lives in My Heart! ='((

2005-11-16T00:51:00.000-08:00

Halo!

i'm kinda bored. ain's out. chatting wip fauzi. i'm listening to stickwitu. weyerd title. but ain't it nice? i recor'd that song on ma fhone. loud and clear. yay. shinx bot me sushi. eating it sambil2 chat wip fauzi. mm. nice. wells. i'm so bored. i edited ma frenstar profile addie. still renovating it. haiishx. got to go uh. babaix.

2005-11-14T23:00:00.000-08:00

hallo. its 3.o1pm. =)) ytd nebar blogg'd siah. ma dad lor. forc'd me to sleep. haha. wells, i knew i had fun. went out jalan yayer wip ma gal pals and some iwitatink bastards. went out wip syafiqah, farah, hani, dinie, dilla, fareha. and harry, azwan, sheihron, hud and eddy. kekes. i was glad as syafiqah really did talk'd to me. bcos of hunnies, asik kacao e6. she still at least, layan'd me. farah was sick. she puk'd at nadiaVictor's crib. haha. toilet hor.. bfor that, we were sitting in the bus. 291 tak salah. i was sitting wip farah and harry was sitting in front. farah say'd she felt like vommiting in the bus. i thot it would be farni. so i ask'd farah. agak2 muntah kao kaler apa uh?. abe harry macam. kekes. dowan to tell uh. haha. then when we reach'd nadiaVictor's crib. farah pinjam toilet and puk'd. she say'd her vommit kaler was greenish. kekes. =PP then we go whose house next. beaver's house uh. kekes. on the way from the bustop to harry's crib. i took eddy's slippers bcos he took hani's perfumes. then we hid it. he tried to take it. then we all attack'd him. he shout'd "rogol" siah. kekes. then at harry's crib. eddy buwat prangai siah. haha. i think he mad at us. =(( bhahaa. kene rogol degan hani. then the gals all hungry. me too. most of us never ate breakfast, lunch and dinner. so we went to tampines. thot of eating at longjon. then tak jadi, we at at kampong chai chee restront whoteber laa eh. we ate. i ate fried rice with salted fish? most of them ate chicken rice. hani ate whot crispy noodles. dunnow whot fareha ate. haha. the bill was $34.40 tak salah. haha. we pay'd all 2dollar notes. kekes. then got this matKENTAL. stakat dye rambot blonde je. kecik2 takmo prangai uh sia. kekes. we went home. we took 8. i drop off at safra. then took 65. i went home 3minutes before 11. kekes. what i really lov'd ytd was that i had to spend time with the a'darx and the iwitatink bastards i us'd to loathe. azwan keyurte siah ytd. kekes. oh yar, padan muker ron lidah kene infection. i'm bored. i'm not chatting wip anybody rite now. not interested wip anybody online now. wells, i wanna bathe. ma breathe smells lyke crap. ma hands smell of crap too. dowan ma mumma to suspek anythink. babaix.
nothing is what it seems!

2005-11-12T09:58:00.000-08:00

hallo. ma clock shows 2.o2AM.. again. watching wwe afterburn and bottomline. while chatting with khai.. =)) so bored. went jalan raya with ma famly just now. boring. but, went to ma dad's friend's crib. was the best. i think. he's anak, mamat. so cute siah. then go to nek yah house. i play with the cat. it had the most beautiful eyes i've ever seen. then go to ma dad's old schoolmate's crib. ma neighbour too. had fun. me and shinkx saw this kid, digging his nose then eating his fargking nose shit. haha. fook that guy siah. then nekmahbee and nek jah came. kecorh sia. haha. now i'm drinking coke. watching how vince macmahon is humiliating jr. curse the macmahon famly. well. i think i got ma favourite wrestlers on list already.

o1- john.cena
o2- rey.mysterio
o3- chris.masters
o4- randy.orton
o5- hardcore.holly (still the best)

=)) it's 2.o9 already. going to watch wwe. do tag. i know alot of you all don't tag arr. notti peples.

2005-11-11T09:59:00.000-08:00

hey. let me rant abit now.. its 2.o2AM now. just want to say i'm sorry if every time i change skin, i lose my tag code. it's not like i save my html code.. =PP i really in love with this skin. the "piling dead bodies.." quote thingy from khai666, a blogskinner famous for his metal skins. hope he doesn't mind if i copy and paste. the goth gal looks lost. with wings and lost eyes. wow. i like duality. even thou it's a lagu basi. haha. went out wip quraisha ytd. to bugis. i wore my brown op boatneck tee. don't wish to boast, but i loves it! then go bugis. bought an automatic eyeliner. q told me to try the maybeline one instead of the silky gerr one. haha. i did. then we bought hair dye. she bought eyeshadow. she bought liq'd eyeliner. haha. sot siah pakai tu. dyed ma hair. tak perang uh. dark brown. or more obv's soon. then we went to eat at mc at bugis sq? then go seiyu, look2 at ma future kappa shoes. look for tees. then go to op. bought a tee there. blue kaler. we-yerd sia. i was wearink an op tee then buy another op tee. haha. wells. i wanna chat wip ma friends. and i'll get my taggy tmr. i think. haha. chattink wip fiyfee_black and qube_zee. wheheee.

2005-11-07T01:30:00.000-08:00

hey. today i ranting twice. or maybe tonight might rant some more. i'm kinda bored. i finished my dad's 'paperwork'. konon clerk ar tu. haha. i'm bored siah. no one online. fauzi's offline. zyklon's offline. syafiq long time offline. bebear might most probably forgotten me already. khair is away, so i can't share my crap with anybody.

wells. went out for a while just now. went to tamp. finally saw Zahrin! he was wip he's akak angkat. i got insulted for my height.. sad siah. at least i got to meet him. i'm happy. haha. i'm recording Don't Love You No More (I'm Sorry). haha. its suchha nice song. i hope to spend more time wip Zahrin. i don't mind wip his akak too. it'll be a big regret not to.. =)) dah uh. babai.

2005-11-06T20:13:00.000-08:00

harlow.

before i rant anything. let me say a Selamat Hari Yayer to every Muslim readink my bloggy.

sorry if there was a long period of not being online and blogging. my computer crashed, like i never tell you like that siah. =)) my computer still got Spyware, i think uh. not laggy. but cannot save files. dissapointed as my dad banned and deleted Msn msgr. so i use Windows msgr. fargk this free world largh. i've been thinking of changing my skin too. i found one. but tak sempat time uh. computer still sotX!

hmm. uh. liyana. what's wip you? takdur pasal nak carek pasal asal? comments about me? keep it to yourself laa. i don't really need it. if you think that's gonna bring me down, forget it. okay?

okay. i don't want to rant angry stuffs at my very own blog. i wasn't happy for my results, not really uh. i failed my maths. dissapointinkly, by ONE mark. and that was a 'U' grade.
okay. look at my marks;
English ~ 67 (3)
Malay ~ 58 (5)
Maths ~ 49 (U)
Science ~ 65 (3)
Geog ~ 50 (5)
Hist ~ 50 (5)
Litr ~ 62 (4)
dNt ~ 76 (1) =))
He ~ 74 (2)
Art ~ 59 (5)
i don't care about my hist and geog uh. maths only. its because my first semester i weak in my maths. then overall siket. than average with my semester two. 49.. 61% and going to naek pangkat. yays! 2a1 tau. hahaks. oh yah. speaking of pangkat. np got on mind. i want to find another cca. jannah need not to worry. tell kak faj i'm sorreh. i reconsider another cca. even if i continue np, i still a stuped cadet. because i never took the stuped promotion test. =))

i babble too much. going bloggink other people's bloggy. going to jamilah's blog ferrsh! hrmm. to disclamers and naggers, love or hate. build or kill. shuddarp. my blog and my say. dont like then leave. no one ask you to come anyways. Happy Holies evryone.

2005-10-18T20:18:00.000-07:00

hey. suchha long time since i blogged.. rights?

wells. sorry. my computer CRASHED. it really did, this time. the mouse pointer can't move. the screen will turn blank. so.. sorry. i blame the stupid Spyware for this. haii.

after reading my taggyboard. i felt pissed. once again. i'll say.
I RULE THIS BLOG. DISCLAIM IT, THEN JUST LEAVE.

i don't care if people hate me. they might be jelous of something or nothing. but i don't care. haha. i'll be looking for a musicvideocode after i post. hahaa. mr saiful kepo. i couldn't post when he was standing here. like what only. haha. okays. i'll be observing my taggers and tagboard. leave comments, insults or anything. i'd take it.

-15.1o

2005-09-26T00:18:00.001-07:00

heys. well. sorry for not been updating lately. lazy AND computer is laggy. sorry. well, i put up a new cbox. may all your opinions be shared with me. aha. i'm in the computer lab. trying to update my blogskin. aha. sitting beside dayah. aha. across the room got jamilah, khairi they all.aha. doing history ehs? aha. hrmm. i'll put songs some other days. okay? aha. listening to Vermillion pt2 on my phone. aha. rawks! wells. got to go. leave a tag and maybe i'll reply. baahbye. and syaafiq. i'm sorry hehs.

2005-09-26T00:18:00.000-07:00

2005-09-06T20:04:00.000-07:00

hey there.

kinda happy at the moment. so i decided to do some ranting. went out yesterday, with papi and irfaan. to bedok interchange. my dad took out money from a bank which i don't know why. i spotted mys junkie and haney at a shop, somehow. felt so paiseh. i was carrying a bagpack, irfaan's spiderman lantern and my hair was out of place. i think haney saw my brother licking my cheeks or something. then got this indian-malay ite bedok guy selling his N72oo! it wasn't my dad's intentions but he bought it from him at a very good cost. then we walk around. we go to handphone shops and ask for N72oo second hand price. $24o leh. big difference! $15o and $24o. bhahahaa. my dad still looking for the N91. but then, the N9o just released. he's broke. ahahaha. went to eat at kfc. my dad's parking coupon expired, but nothing happened. then we went to nenek's house. so boring. i mean as in, no company! my grandpaps sick. my grandmaa gave me ca$h and my uncle talk crap. at my grandmaa's house, fed irfaan. then talk2, then go home. bhahaa. my dad's weird. he listens to Dale Don Dale. and he's 45. or is he 44? oh well.

today got peace and quiet. irfaan's next door. my papi's going home only until 5. maa's working. only leaving me and shinx together. its peace and its quiet. yahoo. well, i haven't brushed my teeth and i'm going to do so. then i'll have my late breakfast and edit some of my blog html. till now, b y e e e.

2005-09-05T04:03:00.000-07:00

hey there.

surprised? surprised that i changed my skin? or surprised i posted? bhahaa.

well, i'm so tired. eating rojak. went out just now. papi let me go out anyways. went to bugis and then to eastpoint. should have never gone to eastpoint sia. but well, it was worth a wait. ahaa. went out with Tasha, Farah, Dilla and Dinie. =))

i didn't buy a single thing. but just look around. its not that i don't have money, i do. but i decide to keep for later use. kena maki'd by my dad cause i came home aboutr 40 minutes late. bhahahaa. went out and saw Khairi. i hate him sia. ahaa. my cousin ar. chey, tak bersalah seh. ahaa. i'm so tired. gonna rest, so long and GOODNIGHT!

2005-08-19T05:59:00.000-07:00

heys .

long time no post , right ?

so lazy to post . ahaa .

it's a friday night ! i can play the computer till 10 ! wahaa . i post because got nothing to do . chatting with Qas , now . ahaa . Jamilah ! he mish you ! as a friend only . ahaa . listening to helena ( MCR ) . yeahs . lagu lama . but . . isn't it a nice song ? i love it . so long and good night . ahaa . that's not right ! my real purpose of posting was because of NP training just now . i got the profiency badge thingy . not the top5 but i did pass . =PP . kawan2 gwe yang enggak terima badge enggak kecik hati yer . minggu hadapan ada lagi . =))

happy to be on sir's "squad" . i look at mam's "squad" macam scattered . ahaa . i improved my maju , hentak kaki and my berhenti . can't say expert ar . ahaa . mam's "squad" the timer like siots . ahaa . mariam better ar , even slower timing . ahaa . i got my first badge for NP ! bhahaa . i did enjoy the sing-a-long with my mam and sir . ahaa . we also played a game . instuctor diana made us play a game . boy girl boy girl stand in a circle . guess who was behind me ?! faiz ! he touched fauzan's shoulder . so his shoulders were right above mine . suweets . ahaa . relek sua . ahaa . even though i hate uzair , pity him siots . zah didn't layan him . cian nyer . then she go with faiz for the next round . and i got hassan . sians right ? ahaa . it's okay lar . she's out to get my guys ! ahaa . sian jer . am i jelers ? oh no . =PP

never ! ahaa . well . penat ar . engkaulah lambang cinta . ahaa . cinta trajika . udah la . b u a i s . .

so much for being - "OKAY"

2005-08-13T02:05:00.000-07:00

heys .

long time no post . ahaa . well . kinda doing nothing right now . . my limewire sots . so . . cannot hear songs . chey . i use WMP . listening to because of you by kelly clarkson . ahaa . been thinking about changing my skin . or maybe change my video . screaming infidelities . gwe udah mendark banget dengan lagu ini . mendarrk bangerrt . so . . any ideas about videos i should put up . hais . so bored . peeked to qas' blog . ccute . greenday . wake me up when september ends . ahaa . i asked him a question . so . . i'm asking y'all now .

what's so bad about september . wake me up . when september ends ? do bears hibernate in september . i watched the video . about perrang . but it doesn't make sense to me . anybody . tell me !

went to tuition just now . do angles . corresponding angles etc . . ahaa . i master it but not with the construction part . next week no tuition . my nenekCAT celebrating her birthday . yeah , my nenek . 55th birthday . quite young . don't you think ? my dad's 45 . i think . nenekCAT and nani same age . but nani older . =)) ahaa . i have 3 neneks . i enjoyy myself . okay . WE call her nenekCAT because sHiNx said that she used to keep loads of cats . she lives in telok blangah . i can't wait to mix around with my wwe fanatic cousins . yeah . we love wwe . i love batista , john cena , eddie guererro . and chris masters . tomorrow madrasah . i haven't hafal a single ayat , huruf . jim , alif . ta . die . if i fail my arab test . shame again ars . i'm the dumbest girl in that class . sucks . hais . ooh . now listening to secret love by jojo . ahaa .

do i look like a minah . please ! aku tak main minah2 ni sumer lar . unrespected junior ? you don't respect me why should i give a damn fcukin' shit to you sia ! none is prefect . i owe a big thanks to you , Syafiq . can't believe i waste my time and heart for someone who doesn't even seem to care . i tried to be "okay" at the moment . but you just . you don't make no sense to me . i think .
i'm so hungry . gonna eat . =))

2005-08-09T08:21:00.001-07:00

hey .

gonn' make a short post . its 11.29pm on my clock . so . . shh ! well . i'm so confused . should i like spectacle hook guy . or *beep* . i mean . like . urghs . i like one guy . thats enough ! but another one popped out ! *beep* is a man of his words . hahaa . well . i can't insult . because i don't wanna fight . i'm trying out this thing . where i don't talk to people behind their backs . that's totally cruel . ahaa . larr . dad membebel . i post pictures of fireworks i took and the pics i took with my friends . tommorrow . i promise ! ! !

2005-08-08T05:11:00.000-07:00

hey there .

had fun today . did you ?

but 1a1's stall sucks . yeah , i admit . stickers . but our designs were pretty much good designs . hahaa . saw mr chen . at his void . he lives in 716 . wheets . he's not teaching damai again , i think . had fun during the concert . i didn't really sing along . ahahaa . i just kutok those who sang all the way ! specially kwa and ang . kekes . i admit . qas is so cute ! hahaa . he and all those stupid singers . the singers were burok . abit ar . kassim sang . funny siots . we took pics with him too . hahaa . i think i'll put it up on the next post . qas is damn cute . hahaa . pysch . eh . got to go . my sister want to use . so . . i recall my day later or tomorrow .

happy 4oth birthday Singapore !
let's reach for the skies . =PP

2005-08-05T22:29:00.000-07:00

hey .

sorry didn't post yesterday . was too tired . had my np yesterday . i almost gave up . i almost collapsed . but guess what ? i pushed myself and i survived ! but my head till today berdenyut2 . i prefer the sec4 ncos . we had longer breaks and those ncos are tamn GEREKS . hahaa . sec3 ncos . so boring . less breaks . we never really got hold of our "maju" . hahaa . sue and ween stayed back until about 5 . i think . they decorate the stall . its nice ! but stall big and nice . we only sell one specific item . stickers . lame rights ? hahaa . well . yesterday . got home . watched tv and play comp . at around 9 i slept . yeahs . didn't mandi . my pe tee and shorts . never brushed my teeth . i lay there flat . with my phone in my left hand . my hands locked beneathe the pillows . woke up , hads were still under the pillow . handphone was still in hand . woke up when irfaan tickled my legs when he was climbing my bed . ahahaa . then got up . charged my handphone and bathe . kalana came . early in the morning siots . watch abit of fantastic 4 . listening to "love for me" by ashlee simpson . who0ts . love that song . =))

having tuition at 3 . hate my mum and paps ! they don't let me go farah's chalet . so what . you offered to pay 200 per month for tuition . farah chalet at 2 . like . i hate life . when can i be done with it . urghs ! i hate em . i updated pictures on friendster already . since they expanded to 25 pictures . . =))

well . going OFF .
<3>

2005-08-03T02:53:00.000-07:00

hello . ahaa .

okay . today , had abit of fun . slept during maths class . barely awake then . did quater of my literature summary . went for recess . then i saw that GUY ! i think i like that GUY ! okay . okay . my friends and i call him "ho0k" . ho0k because he wears spectacle hook . ahaa . then had geography . drew some shoits on my yellow paper . i scribbled , " spectacle hook guy " . and drew him . nazirul and syafiq . waawaa . okay . okay . the pictures were actually guys with a tee and a tie on . long pants . vulcro type shoes . thier hairstyle . except "ho0k" . ho0k got black specs . so i drew . then i cut ho0k off . and showed it to almost everybody ! ! ! we had fun at pw . i am in decoration crew . so . . we needs gala [ bamboo sticks ] , cloth , pegs , twine . . budget is 1obucks . hope its enough . =))

then go run back to class . took the other half , nazirul and syafiq . then i ask those malay people , which one was the cutest . so , ho0k has 7 votes . nazirul has 1 vote and syafiq had 2 . blame me for the artistic work . mine was special because he was tall and has specs . the rest were all like peewees . but in real life . i think nazirul looks the best . i like ho0k ! i mean . it came up to me all over on a sudden . pretty scary but its okay . sue says ho0k looks like a nerd ! sampai hati kan ? then . . dalam hati . . i felt like saying . mine is just simply decent with a funny quacky voice . quiet . spiky hair . and cute . . he is not a geek . the geek is that syafiq . not fair . aku tak hina si syafiq lagi . hais . had my oral just now . malay oral . tamn mr zul . he mistook me for hidayah . haha . lucky mariam corrected it . hahaa . well . i'm going off . b y e e e !

2005-08-01T05:26:00.000-07:00

we both apologized . =))

he's reactions just made me feel so frustruated . at least i CARED . hais . felt quite happy arghs . =))
hope you like my screaming invidelities . or whatever the name is . ahaas . okay ar . i wanna study .

2005-08-01T03:04:00.000-07:00

heys .

i'm so bored . felt so pissed by syafiq .

weik . ak0 tak herans lar gan ka0 . kl0 apa yang tulis pat nick ka0 tu benar . allhamdullilah sajers ar . ka0 mlebihs sak . ak0 panggil mujerzuela je pe sa . ka0 nak mlebihs ni apa sal ! ak0 tak main "even2" ni sumer . ka0 tak heppy gan ak0 p0n appa ak0 herans banget sak . ka0 tak heppy gan ak0 . ak0 tak heppy gan ka0 . cukup ar sia ! ka0 asik nak ungkits jer . sumer ak0 yang bersalah ar nie . ka0 yang brek gan ak0 tapi ka0 cam nak make ak0 feel bad . gi mamp0s lar , jantan . ak0 senang hid0p lar tanpa ka0 . fahmi anggap kawan ak0 p0n ka0 nak heran . ka0 ni appa siots . t0lak nafsu sikits ar . ka0 benci ak0 p0n ak0 nak buat appa sak . eh . ak0 dah malas lar nak bob0al gan ka0 . buats sweh ajer siots .

listening to have you ever - brandy . what a nice song . hais .

have you ever loved somebody so much ,
it makes you cry .
have you ever needed something so bad .
you can't sleep at night ?
have you ever tried to find the words ,
but they don't .
come out right .
have you ever . have you EVER .

=))
chat with sheihron and jamilah just now . jamilah look pretty like that . seriously ! very pretty . talk to her for a while . about QASSY . ahaa . talk to sheihroun about junyuan secondary3 rugby boys . ahaa . kata bosans ! is it true that syafiq IS hospitalised . well . i don't know . =)) i don't care either . suckka . eh . see lah ! i get carried away already . i need to study for my geography common test tomorrow !

good luck all fellow DUMBmaians !

sLUT - LeSS

2005-07-28T05:47:00.000-07:00

gonn' make this post short since the previous post was tamn long . well . Syafiq called me a SLUT . HE called me a PELACUR . HE called me SHORT . HE called me LONGGAR . who the fcukking hell is he ? konon badan kau besar ak0 tak0rts ar sia . uuh . tak0rts arghs . eh Syafiq pyar mak ar , MUJERZUELA . unless you know Spanish . =))

okay . Q's really fricked me out . she's with my uncle . uncle who ? UNCLE MIKE ! like . oh my total fricking goush . haha . he looks like a bangla to me . wakakaka .

just now leparks for a while . the jannah's boi smile at me . cam kerek sia . hais . but atleast he smiles . dah kenal muka dah . ahahax . well . dah penarts lerr . 0kays .

i swearrs ttuh g0rrd ttuh unbreakk mii harrt annd brekk hiis b0nes .
he's durr MUJERZUELA .

2005-07-25T05:59:00.000-07:00

hello .

hais . yes . computer still got spyware . my worthless dad promised to download spybot . tapi putuskan janji . hais . he asked for a breakup . okay . i'm okay with it . serious . i cried once . only once . which i did . i cried myself to sleep . now i feel like . i lost my friends . my hiim . my hope . my confidence . my future . i didn't know what was i thinking . sue made me frust . so i threw my phone at her . i just can't take it anymore with her . there's just something bothering me 'bout her . arghs . she and her stupid ween and dayah . oh - no . i'm not jelous . hopefully , they think i'ma " run back to them " . 'cause they think i don't have any friends . arghs . i know Tasha is damn lame and Mariam is a loudmouth . i just chill with Yanti . i tried fitting in . but nahs . hais . i lost my hope . i feel so . ALONE in the world . so left out . my confidence . i'm too quiet around these days . TOO QUIET . that's not me . i feel so . alone . no ones here . i'm just a kid . life's like this . why does it always have to be unfair . that's not cool . my future . i thought everything i had would be together . but it just made me slip away . i'm not having a bad day . . i'm having a bad July . crying won't help . Afzal didn't help too . hais . my heart feels so broken . yet i keep it all to myself . who else is there gonn' hear me out . so i guess . . i'll fess it up in this blogspot of mine .

i thought i could have everything forever . but nothing i had lasted . i lost him . them . it . crying didn't help . no one did help me . i wish i could share it with anybody . but i think i'm all left out . i wonder if y'all know how it feels to be LEFT OUTSIDE ALONE . i'm so alone . i'm vindicated . hais . isn't there anyone out there . i think i'll just keep my deep sorrows to myself . even my heartbeat is slowing down . if i die , that would be my destiny . but i don't think i'm destined to be . .

been wondering if i could remake a blogskin . something deadly . haunting . but definetely not emily the strange . too local . hais .

29o6 * 23o7 .

omg . porn ! buias .

2005-07-22T06:39:00.000-07:00

hey . sorry for not posting for a long , long time . there's a spyware attacking my pc . yeah . i sneak onto the internet . hais . eh . its irritating . so . i'll post when my computers restored . muarchiees .

2005-07-18T01:22:00.000-07:00

doink - ies .

hello . kekeke . listening to ass like that . mvc never give mvc for ass like that . hais . today . racial harmony day for damai . wore a punjabi suit . got praised by some teachers . oh shucks . kekes . took loads of pictures with ween and sue . got loads . here's one . if its too big . kekeke . the teachers didn't mind me putting the digi cam on the table . who cares . kekes . no one seems to be online . hais . so bored . khairBD says today got rugby match . i'm not so sure . i don't even care . kekeke . well , tomorrow gonn's be another ordinary day for this girl . hais . i feel so lazy nowadays . don't feel like chatting with anybody . i just mostly go friendstering . its not l0ike syarfique's gonn be online . hais . chatting with Q.Zee .

haha . this one . is my favourite ." 1 .2 . 3 " . haha . ween looks so fake . we're all so childish . just now me , sue and ween laugh like what sia . hani and her friends were walking . we were just about to strike a pose . . i heard the flush . it was all . taik batu . i laugh like some pyscho kid . sue also laugh . i think hani terperanjat . kekekes . farah wear that outfit . looks nice on her . very nice . jepon with short hair . then just now . saw some Arabs . and one Indian . nabeel . that azhar guy in 3a3 . sulhi . keke . alot ar . most of them wear punjabis and cheongsam . hehe . had an okay day today . =))

the snapshot when we all laughed like hell . -->

oh well . wanna go off . buais . err doink - ies .

2005-07-17T01:30:00.000-07:00

doink . doink . doink -;

kekekes . from ass l0ike that is doing . doing . doing . blehs . kekes . today is Sunday . well , i can't believe i'm saying this but . i'm so looking forward to school . give me silent prayers of having a good day tomorrow , please . happy 13th birthday to Harry . ahahacks . i told him . he's still not old enough to buy his own cigarettes . kekeke . tomorrow wearing a *beep* . you guys look out for what i'm wearing ! kekeke . i think i'm wearing heels . yay . i can be "taller" . kekeke . agnes no fair . she tell what i'm wearing . blehs . sians ! why tell leihs . kekeke . okay . stop all this crap . listening to "bad day" . whooosiies ! you had a bad day . you hear a sad song . err doink . doink . doink . chatting with a bunch of peopleS . today also a bad day . headache . argh . slept on the couch just now . hais . dad gave 50 bucks . to buy food . for me and sister . i want 4 bucks . to buy battery . can take snapshots . yay-sie . well . i'm going to end my day's babble here . err doink . doink . doink .

2005-07-15T01:26:00.000-07:00

hais . hello . so bored . eating maggie . asam laksa . drinking coke . not chatting with anyone right now . i'm not in the mood . somehow , feeling depressed . for no specific reason . so bored . and its almost 4pm . hais . been listening to Stolen and We Belong Together . repeatingly . hais . so bored . sue and ween dropped by my house . play with irfaan and ween pinjam baju . hais . it looks nice on her . hais . me , yellow colour . hers is darkblue . sue's is black . we're not gonn' tell what we'll be wearing . kekeke . spoil the fun . let's say . we're wearing costumes . i'm yellow . but no shoes . damai sucks . no high heels . no slippers . no sandals . then what . school shoes . sians . i got high heels . no sandals but got slippers . you expect me to wear my pump shoes . sucks . what to wear . i'm sir-ter-ass ! hais . okay . get a grip you , girl pyscho . haha . okay . i changed my friendster . not account . haha . my pictures . and . i'm not using those "step cute" language . gget miie ? . hahacks . step cute , right ? kekeke . my friendster is ' UNappreciated . kekeke . gambar , muka step . konon pakai shades . tapi in the end . nampak bra strap . i'm such a pyscho ! kekes . yay . looking forward to cheerleadings . rawks ! i've always wanted to be a cheerleader . besides , everybody knows , i have a good voice . keke . even Mr Saiful knows i have a loud voice . my teachers recognise my screaming too . pyscho . whahaas . today also no npcc . brilliant . if have , i'll kill hafezzah and farhana . oh well . this is long enough . haha . wongbo praised me . i never kembang but i kembang hidung . me and keewee got praised . like shit that wongbo is . hahacks . chatting with .:»*«[DE](106)AciK_PapaKeciK-Black Dice Fan»*«:.™ Match On Monday Against Bukit Batok Sec [84/85 slayer] . hahax . rashiT . no lah . acik . kekes . okay lar . buaiis . [ 29 ]

2005-07-13T01:27:00.000-07:00

hi . sorry , yesterday didn't blog . okay . hais . yesterday had fun . chat with jamilah and acik . kekek seh . kita ber- kut0k . kekes . yesterday went to buy some paper . me , ween and sue colour sepasang . kekes . now eating . what leftover my mum put inside the fridge i take out . so i use the frying pan . and cook the noodles . dee 's fried noodles , refried . kekes . tastes good . i put soya sauce also . kekes . drinking coke . hais . been listening to stolen - jaysean since just now . hais . you stole my heart . hais . today had an okay - okay day . hrmm . okay ar . lazy to type long - long . no benefit . chey . keke . hrmms . syafiq , when is your birthday ? i think i forgotten . hehes . remember , mine is o8o9 . don't anyone dare sab0 me . okay ? kekes . okay . b y eee .

2005-07-10T04:04:00.000-07:00

hey . listening to behind these hazel eyes by kelly clarkson repeatingly . hais . i love syafiq . i'm so crazy . i admit . hais . quite in a good mood . my maths , almost done . hais . my leg got cut . hurts . bled just now . but now i let the blood dry . i won't touch it . hrmm . you think my mum will write me a letter to excuse myself for skipping pe ? i really hate pe nowadays . my leg got itchy got pain . hais . never mind . i'll just go drag my butt to pe . i'm so lazy . hais . here i am . once again . i'm torn into pieces . chey . padahal masih perfect seh dengan syafiq . wakakaka . hrmm . zulfadly is rather quiet with me . so is harry . hehe . yay . wakakaka . hrmm . tomorrow hope nothing bad will happen between me and syafiq . pray hard for me , alright you guys ? hrmm . edited some pictures just now . the one we took on friday . me , sue and ween . hehe . we look so . step cute . haha . check it out on my friendster . kekes . hrmm . okay ar . the song making me depressed . b y eee .

2005-07-09T22:10:00.000-07:00

hey . sorry yesterday didn't blog . forgotten . haha . had a group conversation yesterday . with acik , khair , qas and jamilah . haha . quite fun though . haha . never knew qas could be this funny . hrmm . later monday i jos his kepala . haha . he was like . being a jerk . he said he tak kenal jamilah . if i was jamilah , i would say . kau tak kenal sua . so like , siapa jamilah . siapa qas . hrmm . just now madrasah did arab . so boring . hies . now i'm home . chatting with you guess who ! zulfadly . remember him ? east coast . twentytwo may ? yeah . radeon prince . haha . he no longer with his "girl" . too bad . whahaas . you know , everysince my boii not online , got some guys mengatal with me . or tired to be gatal around with me . they use " i - u " language while i use " aku - kau " . sians . like , i already have a boii , let me get to him , not you . whahaas . guys like izzat . smatrep . ada lah eh . geli aku . okay ar . i want to play with irpan . b y eee !

2005-07-08T04:26:00.000-07:00

hi . just finished bathing . just now go npcc . i can't say its tough because it wasn't as harsh as before . i can't say its fun as it was rather tough . get my point , ya . hrmm . did pt . they spray water on us . baru tengah lek lek . haha . thought i lost my skirt . silly , stupid me . it wasn't hanging inside . it wasn't hooked onto the hanger . i swear ! haha . konon manja ar gan nco si dektu . whahaas . tired ar just now . my left arm still hurts . serious . but i managed to do pumping and all . wakakaka . haha . i look at my boii just now . managed to pinch him . i think it hurts . i know i pinch apuiiee . hrmm . tired ar sia . haha . aku ; duey . surya ; marsiah . dayah ; susie . ween ; dia . haha . had fun just now in school . played in music class . goofed off . wrote a long essay during english about reasons why schools should start later in the day . i had lots of good points . no need to skip breakfast . suffiecent time for everything . but no excuses for coming in late . and school end at around 2 or 3 . more to the good points than bad points . hrmm . then history . told wongb0 i lost my history . i really did ! then kwa came in late . less than 5 minutes , the bell rang . we never touched the book . he just scolded us . haha . recess , as per normal ar . saw my boii . spit . disgusting ar . then got science . experiments was great . i like the experiment a . kita dengar suara 'pop' sound . haha . so jakon . tried like , 3 times . haha . the magnesium thingy did half way and do the practical blindly . haha . go malay class . wore nas' specs . haha . decenCE . haha . love the specs but i don't use degree . haha . konon perfect vision . padahal tak bleh differenciate bus number 21 and 22 . haha . okay ar . tired ar . [ serious ] . till now . by eee .

2005-07-07T00:15:00.000-07:00

there SHE go making a mess . all around school making me stress . i need to get this off my chest . and if her bu ch-s want some then they'll be next . it really ain't that compicated . y'all wannabes all "konon" frustruated . you want some of s hiit . come on . let's make it . someday let's see whose really gonna make it . pengcot . konon panggil ak0 gi toilet . abei pangil ako sorang . korang geng konon . mepek seh . lek sua . tuduh asal boleh . konon aku tau sak blok maner . klau kau sendirik cakap blok aku . tak semestinya aku yang tulis pe . kau terbiat sak . tuduh asal boleh . nak kena kan aku je . mana tau . aku bukan dalam dunia nie sorang pe yang benci ni sumer . nangis tu lakon jer . konon air mata bleh menitis bgitu cepat . konon nangis bleh sempat ketawer . korang sumer UNGKiT . hal dah lepas nak dapatkan balek . klao dorang sumer tak heppy gan aku . sal dorang tak konfron aku . asal lak kau mebok . t0k shit only . girlfight tak girlfight . malas mau layan . nanti insyaAllah aku kan hang kau . this time aku bawak gang aku abe kau kena tinggalkan gang kau tu . fair ?

fuck that bitch . aku tak bersalah . nk kenakan aku konon . blok mana . lah . klau si ex-ad'ars ada prob gan aku , kau tak yah mebok pe . kau ingat si hani bukan kawan ku pe . kau ingat aku benci si farah pe . pepek ar . kau ungkit sak . pentingkan jubo orang lain sak .

hies . hehe . got to touch petak's head . so . rough . [ biasa ar ] . haha . almost cubit-ed syafiq . haha . tangan basah nah . aiyoh . hies . no mood to talk ar . rabiah took my mirror !

2005-07-06T03:00:00.000-07:00

hies . i'm not angry anymore . just sad . hies . syafiq , i love you . been listening to fall to pieces since just now . hies . fiyfee , sue and ween came my house just now . hehe . we plan ar . haha . then they go home . then i frust just now . hrmm . so bored . chatting with wani . hrmm . yeah , these few days slack in attitude but straight for my studies . my mood , not level . always angry by day . cry to sleep at night . nobody seems to care . * shrugs * .

seconds . minutes . hours . days . weeks . months . years . eternity or infinity .

can i know how long we can last .

i want to be serious this time .

i don't take no jokes about it .

i want to be made . made new .

i want you to be the only person that can change me .

i just want to be by you're side .

i wish things between us would last forever .

i wish you can define what's love for me .

take my hand .
lets walk together .
we'll make it , i swear .
i want us to last forever .

2005-07-06T01:47:00.000-07:00

no mood . not gonna post too much . really pissed with h iim . i don't wanna talk about it . fiffiie , suziie and weeniie came to my house . sister came back early . no biggy . freaking pissed . i don't want to talk about it . maybe later i post .

2005-07-05T06:34:00.000-07:00

hiie . whee . aiyoh . sorry for the gunther song . i also didn't notice . s0e tau . malas lah nak tukar balik . then i must recopy and paste the code AND resize it . malas . lagu okay perr . wakakaka . hrmm . was so pissed with h iim just now . was so fc uked up yet i remained cool towards the problem . never picked up the phone because my phone silent mode abey tak sedar . sorry tau , boii ! then i tried to call him . at night , just now . tak angkat . tu lah . nasib aku . hies . i listen to i'm with you . siak ar . nobody likes to be alone . whoah . hehe . listening to fall to pieces , continuously . hrmm . you tried to say the things that you can't undo . i pray that we make it though . and i don't wanna fall to pieces . i just wanna sit and stare at you . hies . oh yeah . sorry yesterday tak online abe tak post . sis play comp ar . yesterday go jurong . i'm black . yucksie . hehe . saw this kak from 3a3 . yeah . i think she related to isamuddin . cause i saw that lil' rascal . hies . today almost slept in class , again . hies . i don't wanna fall to pieces . i don't wanna talk about it . i don't want a conversation . i want you only lah . you really want me to call out to you . you want me to say your name out loud . you want me to really tell you how much i feel for you . you want . cause i can . just say the word . i will . i need you . i never talked to you . i feel so dead without you - boii . you're always on my mind . sometimes it hurts , i have to cry . you know not . all you do is lepak with your chai chee gang . hrmm . up to you lah . sorry pon whatever ar . hrmm . wanna know how you feel . cause i don't want to fall to pieces . ekh . asal post sumer fall to pieces . hrmm . whatever lah ekh , boii . if you really read what i've posted . do sms me . sorry ar . prepaid tinggal 2.98$ . i can't reply . but i'l try to call you . 1543secs left . so , i can call you ar . i love you very much , boii . i'm in love with you . [ i think so ] . hrmm . okay lah . i wanna go friendstering . -buaiiz-

2005-07-03T04:13:00.000-07:00

hello there . the angel from my nightmare . the shadow in the background of the morgue . hehe . my baby came home a day early . he came back yesterday night . yay . hehe . i miss him so much . whahaas . i wish i could just hug him tightly . hrmm . i wish i could . i miss you . hrmm . just now went to bedok interchange with mumma and faan . go eat first . saw that huda sial . i meant . kuda sial . haha . then went walk walk . saw this very nice coverse shoes . 39bucks . but high cut . not nice if i wear . i'd be looking shorter . hies . then mum asked me if i wanna buy new school shoes . i said yah . since my kappa now has gold sides . why not . she wants to buy those cloth type . so common . the shoes . hies . i want sleese . to match ween and sue . but i later kotorkan kasut ar . next time lah . went to giant also . nothing there . then now i'm back . once again . hrmm . tommorow going jurong , swimming . i'm not fat alright . i'm not slim also . but my body never see babat . haha . i just hate the swimming costume . so big . then cannot see my sexy body . haha . oh no . my hair . kena chlorine . that would be damage to my hair . oh no . damn . hopefully i take care about my skin tone . i don't wanna end up like sheihron . kekeke . chatting with my two beautiful boys . my boii and bitchy zyklon . haha . yeah . bitchy zyklon . i am the basterd . he is the bitch . hehe . my abang bitchy zyklon . kekeke . well , i'm going off . byeee . hehe . uhh . i hope hanis plan will go on smooth . i want to go chalet . mumma let me go . but cannot overnight there . yeah baby . yeah baby . yeah . byeeee !

2005-07-02T15:35:00.000-07:00

hey . i'm so bored . my baby's offline . hies . he's not even in singapore . hies . he's in batam . so bored .waiting for him . waiting . waiting . show me the meaning . of being lonely . is this the feeling . i need to walk with . tell me why . i can't be there where you are . there's something missing . in my heart . there's no where to run . i have no place to go . surrender my heart . body and soul . hies . when he gone ar . someone nak kenal2 with me . puh-lease . hehe . at least he knows Khairullah and Ms Azleen . hrmm . bored . ain't no sunshine when he's gone . its not warm when he's away . ain't no sunshine when fiq's gone . and that boy's just gone too long . everytime , he goes away . hrmm . its been too long and i'm lost without you . what i'm gonna do . said i've been needing you . wanting you . wondering if your're the same and whose been with you . is you're heart still mine . i wanna cry sometimes . i miss you .
you went to batam . miss you in a way . straight from yesterday . you up and left me . we were close friends . also lovers . did everything . for one another . now that you're gone is that i'm lost without you and i . gotta leave me and i'm suffering now and i . come back . to me . can you hear me . calling for you .
hiesh . i really no mood to post . no mood . no mood . no mood . i don't wanna fall to pieces . hrmm . i miss you so much . i just can't help it lately . hrmm . hies . today boring . went for tuition at around 11 . penat tau . do ratio and proportion . boring . hies . so tired . i'm going to watch tv ar . hies . i miss you . miss you . miss you . come back to me with open arms tau . love you no matter where you are . miss you no matter it was just yesterday . hies . byeee .

2005-06-30T01:56:00.000-07:00

hello . hehe . hrmm . haha . ekh . aiyo0h . listening to spoiled - joss stone . hies . today quite boring , tiring and sleepy . boring bacause weenie never come . tiring because i really did my schoolwork . sleepy because i slept in maths class . hies . today pon penatkan diri sendiri . hies . thinking of cabot-ing kwa's lesson . but sue don't want . okay then . so i ikot . she say later kwa call parents , again . aiyah . only zah , dzu , nas , tasha , me and sue only turn up seh . kalau tak turn up pon boleh seh . tak kan kwa nak call about 34 kids seh . haha . hies . so lapar . mummy cook curry . yay . going to eat after posting . chatting with mazlina and sue . hehe .

disgusting seh tadi . i went back to school . at around 3 . i wanted to see my cayang . but he play soccer . so i tried to "bond" with eddy . siak ar . he said he tak kenal me . haha . i wish i could feel the texture of that guy's head . kasar nyer . lumpy . hehe . eddy , you suck . he also said i like zaki . no lah . i love my one and only . [ ekhems ] . faiz also stared at me sia . fuck ! this time he stare for a long time . i was like , apa sak kau tgok tgok . he just stared . angry at me ? don't think so . hrmm . i think he knows . nadzmy disgusts me . no one there to stand up for me . so sad . felt so fricking pissed inside . so i go toilet and release my anger . and do my hair . hehe . then i come out . go out of school . nadzmy lick icecream . fuck sia . lidah panjang siyal . hies . now i'm home . i'm tired of typing . i'm wearing yu neng pe tee with the name tag on it . and damai pe shorts . haha . bad combination , i know . hies . okay . i'm gonn' eat now . byeeeeeeeeee . me love [ekhems] !

2005-06-28T02:49:00.000-07:00

hey . today sucks . so boring . felt so gloomy today . maybe because of h iim . saw him walk past my class with iqmal they all . aiyah . hrmm . today got nagged by wong b0 . si tetek besar . kekeke . i sengaja never bring any history stuff , except my history project . teehee . hrmm . we had to do an essay . so lame . 25o words - 4oo . i did 216 words only . heck care . supposed to stay back do summary for gita . cabo0t . also must see mr tan . me and ween , cabo0t too . hehe . if that tan dare call my mum or dad , call ar . they know yesterday i go out , so i cabo0t . hehe . hrmm . tadi english kekek seh . hehe . nadzmy patah tangan jatuh katil rupa-rupanya . hehe . during assembly , xavier marah we all . gi mampos . nak ketawa pon salah . hehe . paris ? haha . kekek seh . hrmm . chatting with mazlina now . i miss her so much . hies . i'm so bored . listening to going crazy - natalie . lagu lama seh . hies . whatever lah that guy . he want me to call him abang angkat pon boleh lah . gasak kau lah . tapi hati nie tetap sayang . hrmm . boring ar . i want to eat lempok , lom masak . i want to eat what mummy cook . but she haven't finish cooking . aiyaah . okay lah . i want to stuff my head into a pillow . let me scream in . long live h iim .

2005-06-27T05:02:00.000-07:00

hey there . hehe . today is . " the first day of school " . that was what most of my peeps said . oh come on . its the term 3 . shesh . open up that calender dude . hehe . listening to " bad , bad man " - john cena . he's hot . who0 . hehe . today , surprised that afifah really turned up for school . haha . hrmm . me and weenie cab0t from seeing mr tan . to hell with that old man . even if he calls my parents , heck care man . my parents know i go out . bedok interchange . with suzie and weenie . hehe . sushi ? rotiboy ? ntuc ? mcdonalds medium fries ? whah . hehe . kekek seh . then buy icecream . me take turns with weenie and suzie seh . weenie lick once . then suzie . then me . sial ar . icecream 5ocent pon masih share seh . wakakaka . hehe . kit akan . ekhem . budget . hehe . well , just now at school , i never see or meet my baby . i miss him so much . called him just now , he bored . i told him later at night i call him back . he said not sure . i can't babe . sorry . i jaga this lil' rascal . aiyaah . sian tau . he in his cot now . hehe . tadi i kopek durian . help mumma . she want to make lempok . alerghai . if she want to cook , i eat lah . i long time never eat durians seh . hehe . gerek seh . tapi pon i never go home after come back from bedok interchange . i go duduk and lepak kejap with meen and q . hehe . makan maggie . hehe . got this guy . i don't know his name lah . he recognise my face already , aiyaah . he looks so irritating . eek . then rugby guys came to mike's . sial ar . i saw sheihron , azwan , harry , acik and khai . siak ar . khai muka cam musibat sak . siak ar . tak handsome seh . [ serious ] . eek . abey nak step comcept "m0d" seh . aiyaah . you're not the guy i used to know . =P . whahaas . hehe . whahaas . i adopt that word from sarahh . hehe . hrmm . i miss my cayang very much . i drew on a piece of scrap paper . with tasha's orange marker . i draw . draw draw draw . very nice . q wants to look at it tommorow . i mean , the paper is very nice , the design ar . not the name . aiyaah . i love him so much . this time is for real . i mean , my past 8 ex . they never really layan me via sms AND calls . hehe . pasal sayang yang nie plark , my prepaid left 6.78$ . hiesh . hehe . at least i have about 25minutes free airtime . who0 . hehe . okay lah . i want to play with irfaan . hehe . silly me , hes playing with sHiNx's cds . haha . scratches not my prob ey sis . hehe . okay . bye . [ you and me . WE BELONG TOGETHER ! ! I WISH THINGS WOULD LAST FOREVER . ]

2005-06-25T17:32:00.000-07:00

p as in pheobe . h as in hebe . e as in ebe . o as in obe . be as in bebe . and e as in . ello there mate . hehe . yeah . kinda lame , i know . hehe . just came back from tuition . damn tired . did algebra . whoah . damn hard seh . this week no homework for me . yay . kekeke . five or six pages of full page algebra . i'm lucky to be alive . hehe . after tuition , send my tuition teacher go cik edah's house . then antar shinx go bedok interchange . from tampines to pasir ris to bedok interchange till home . all the way i sms my cayang . whaa . hehe . yeah i know , weird . dad buat bodoh about those sms`es . shinx yang membebel about me sms-ing . hehe . lah , sms my cayang pon tak leh . what only shinx . hrmm . bored seh . listening to "i miss you" again and again and again . hrmm . miss my best friends . suzie . yana . syarfique . ween . hymmppffhh . hehe . funny seh suzie . she say she's fat and she wants me to help her . later open school ask me to remind her not to eat from monday to friday . poor girl . without her , how can i eat during recess . hrmm . later , monday . i feel like . i wanna . chase . syarfique . hehehe . i wanna hug and squeeze that baddie . i miss my cayang so much . hehe . i hope i will never see that eddy again . suckka . hrmm . yesterday watched wwe . whoohoo . now i know that john cena is wwe champion . whoo . he's a bad man . a bad man . hehe . then stupid kurt angle pin sharmale . sharmale cannot wrestle seh . she not wrestling contract tau ! luckily got booker t . tapi dia kena hit gan steel chair . piia0o0 . stupid right . ffc uk lah that kurt angle . oh yeah , john cena admitted that carlito is . n0t co0l . who0 . yeah . hehe . okay lah . i want to , drink coke and watch tv . to00oooddLes .

2005-06-23T04:13:00.000-07:00

hi . okay . had a short chat with hani just now . i think it was a mistake or misunderstanding . they all made me frust . hiesh . chat with wani also . she okay okay today ar . no more crappy stories . hies .
dear syafiq ,i really don't know what's gotten into you . i was watching chori chori chupke chupke a few hours back . but then i don't know what happened to you . i mean like , aku tak bersalah seh . what did i do ? then , telling me to shut up and fuck off . you really should think twice about what you said tau . you is garbage . i had so many fights with you , but this time , aku tak bersalah . if i'm not in the wrong , why should i apologize . so , you really should , K1SS MY FC UKK1NG ARSE . GO0D BYE .
hrmm . i really don't know how i feel . towards who ? mohamad eddy noh hisham . argh . i love him . or not . buy , zah is "his friend" . i bet she's really lucky . with a guy that has the cutest eyes . tamn . hies . i want eddy . or not . hies . got to go . going to do homework . to0dles . [[ miie kk0nfusd . miie wwan eddii . bbut miie dunn0 iif miie relliie wwan eddii ]

2005-06-21T21:49:00.000-07:00

kekeke . hi . i edited some of my html . kekeke . i was bored . but it took me two days though . can you believe it . two days . i took hours just to get a mv in my mind . i wanted blink182 actually . they never give codes for blink182 ! fc ukk ! blink182 rawkx . listening to the rock show . haha . the songs i hear , mostly crap . i love dammit . haha . i put pictures in extras , so that , they can see me ! kekeke . hrmm . so bored . feel so happy for my bestie friend . she has her own blog . you know , for a beginner , she very good . i don't know if anybody helped her ar . but that skin is nice . but she never add anything inside . no links no songs . never mind . next time i help her . but her skin about a girl in the rain . is she depressed ? kekeke . listening to i miss you now . hies . don't waste your time on me , you're already the voice inside my head . hies . i miss syarfique sia . miss him . alot . but i don't think he really cares if i miss him or not . i'm always " angry at him " . shesh . maybe annoyed , but no need to go that far what . hies . miss him . hrmm . now is first date ! hehe . forever and ever . lets make this last forever . hies . okay lah . enough . mum , shinx and faan just came back from the pasar . they bought me coke . 1.5l . yeah babe . writing a testi for yanarif . okay . bye .

2005-06-20T01:09:00.000-07:00

hey . damn . i damn tired . so i make this a short post . went to pulau ubeeeeen just now . kimak . roll in mud . like teh susu . and then cover ourselves with mud . cam babi . siak . dah lah cukup ar . the walk was damn stupid . inst hakim ar . we had to do pumping in mud . not ordinary mud . this one is very wet . like . real teh susu . so watery . felt so tired . then got bee attack . hehe . the cooking our hads still abit muddy . haha . so tired . chatting with my cutey utiie syarfique . hehe . saw eddy just now at school . hies . i think zah want to make me jelous . she block him from seeing me . aku tak sempat cakap hi . maybe because i'm nervous or just . -_-" . i don't know my feelings towards that Mohd. Eddy Noh Hisham . that guy very odd . a part of me wants to hate him . but i just can't . somebody otta help me get him off my head . he is the only one i was crazy for . now he's gone . i just don't know what to do . i don't want to hold back . hies . better be alone because i don't want another heartbreak . hies .

2005-06-19T06:06:00.000-07:00

hey . today went out in the afternoon . go pasir ris park . lah . also at the beach that side . was great . me , mama , faan , cik tini , haziqah and pak itam . got invited by mama's friend . barbeque . was great . indonesians . i think . birthday girl was turning 10 . didn't really talk to her . pak itam play yoyo with his friends . hies . talk with iqah . mostly buat bodoh ar . chat with khairi just now . things are pretty back to normal . he's no heartbreaker to me now . i''m gonn respect him as a friend . hehe . his gambar at friendster so keyut . hehe . he looks better when hes hair is flat . hehe . hies . but going to the beach was not bad . hies . i just finished bathing . now my body itching . awchh . chatting with this adilla girl . hrmm . just now some freak sms me . tam . you all keep asking me about Farah . back off ar sia . i never hate her sia . i just hate ad'arx . now you guys no more ad'arx , better . yah . she give the bag back . i got say i hate her ? i got ? jangan asal boleh tuduh ar . mulut tu slalu gossip . diam ajer ar sia . tak tau pa per . lek one corner minum susu diam diam ajer ar . sweh ar korang . confront told me to read testi . hani give farah . tam . i never hit boys liao . i rarely . i know the testi didn't really describe all about me . what's with the biitch . well . to get back to y'all . i had to do the same to farah . shame her on msn ? well . not really . aww . no more sickening ad'arx . but who cares . my objective was not to break you guys friendships . i don't care about your friendship . i know i was in the middle of you guys friendship too many times . i back off . now you lil girls scratch off my back will you . let me chill . and . actually . i never hated dila n' dinie . yeah . well . i too , hate widad . hrmm . no more friendship with you guys . i have better friends outside school . we bond closer then you guys . so . if you really want to tuduh asal boleh , open up the calender and check the dates before having real proof . WHO SAID I HATE FARAH , NOW ? SHE RETURN THE BAG ALREADY . FULL STOP . DOT . and about what i said about " you make me hate ad'arx " . i actually do hate ad'arx for a long time . hies . enough about that . argh . faan is crawling towards the chair . damn . okay . gonn grab coke downstairs . tomorrow going pulaw ubeen . hiking . be back late . think sister will use . don't think can update tomorrow . but do , beep me on my mobile . damn . i miss syarfique . muuarrcckkxx .

2005-06-17T10:40:00.000-07:00

hey . been quite a while since i blogged . school opening soon . 27 June . that's so . . not far from today ! argh . oh shit . thanks for reminding me about my homework ! omg . oh shit . hies . i'll start tommorow . or monday . oh wait . monday got hiking . nevermind . tuesday i'll start . kekeke . hrmm . playing habbo . hehe . i got angry at Fauzi just now . i very lazy to tell you . hiesh . i really hope , me and syafiq will get along . i feel so bad about just now . i really did . i guess i was the one who started the fire . but i didn't start everything . hies . i wanna thank confront , you really gave me an alert then . i read everything . totally . thanks confront . hies . who could be my bestest and most trusted friend be ? well , i don't really care . because , if anybody is my BESTfriend , who would really want to betray me . hehe . oh well . going off . good night .

2005-06-10T06:56:00.001-07:00

urgh . . tell me . . am i really that ugly till you hate me ? or maybe you think i'm shallow ? some say i'm vain . . they don't even look at my heart . . its shattered here . . shesh . . thanks for being honest khai ! thank you . . thanks for those reasons . . you are so honest . . hate you . . i love you. . i can't believe i fell for a jerk who only looks at apperances . . never have i seen these kind of guys . . i bet even shahrizad don't do that anymore . . do i have to cry for you ? hrmm . . i can't believe i felt for him . . argh . . sucka . . jamilah's giving great advice . . thanks girl . . we on the same side now . . qas and khai . . suckkas and total jerks . . hrmm . . i pray to god that something would happen to khai and qas . . i'm down on bended knees . . i pray to the almighty above . . hrmm . . whatever lah . . bye . . [ khairi sucks for life ]

2005-06-10T06:56:00.000-07:00

2005-06-09T05:38:00.000-07:00

hey . . hehe . . just so . . argh . . khairi HAS msn . . he added me . . chat with him just now . . its so hard to forget him . . first saw him under my void on monday . . tuesday saw his face at qas' friendster ! now he added me . . fuck sia . . does that guy always have to be everywhere to me ? you're everywhere to me . . when i close my eyes its you i see . . hmm . . i can barely hang on . . hrmm . . i understand if he wants to be alone . . but please . . argh . . tell me once its enough . . okay ? enough . . argh . . he's an obsession so strong even zul can break away . . hmm . . once bitten twice is shy . . hies . . i said [143] to a guy . . he really thought i . . him . . as in ". ." not . . him . . argh . . what can happen next . . my life went backwards . . a part of me wants khairi so bad . . a part of me just wants to hate him . . why . . khair was right . . why should i hate someone whom i just can't have ? its alright . . but . . if i can't have him i'd rather be single . . playing habbo right now . . an actress . . getting paid soon . . =D . . bye . .

2005-06-08T05:18:00.000-07:00

hey . sorry didn't post yesterday . my computer sian . . hehe . . the bum bag . . its so nice . . mesh bag with pink stripes . . i will never lend it to my sister . . haha . . my glove bag under the bed . . hope she won't find it . . biarch . . hehe . . hmm . . staying home the whole of my life . . i bet prisoners take in more fresh air then i do . . hrmm . . feeling rather sick . . stupid cough hit the back of my throat . . coke didn't help much though . . hrmm . . something like bothering that syarfique . . hies . . hope me and fiq can never turn out like everyday matters . . we always apologize at the end of the day . . we always start with sorry is nothing but a word . . hies . . its almost 8.30 . . wanna eat . . anything sms me . . the stupid biarch who pranked me will so gonna be fucked up because she don't know what i ever did to her number . . going for my dinner . . bye . .

2005-06-06T03:26:00.000-07:00

hey . . just got back from tampines . . with irah . . had an okay day . . bought a bum bag , a charmbracelet and took neoprints . . hrmm . . kinda bored . . but also tired . . okay ar . . i better rest . . anything , just pop me a message aite ?

2005-06-05T00:17:00.000-07:00

hey . . how are you ? hehe . . i'm so happy today . . even though mama nagged at me 7 minutes ago . . heck i care . . see my blog ? i made it . . sort of . . hehe . . i love it . . don't you ? will's switch . . yeah . . with glitters . . actually the glitters and siggies came from dollielove and dolliecrave . . they deserve the credits . . you should chek it out . . its really cool . . argh . . please oh please tag in before you leave . . give me comments about improving . . i'm a beginner blogskin-ner . . please and thanks . i'd rather be going . irfaan's driving me mad . .

2005-06-03T22:34:00.000-07:00

hey. you like my new skin? its a little bit over broad right? must be the "stylish gurl"..but who cares. i love it. only my picture there not nice. please agree with me on this one. well. it took me. 2 hours and 17minutes to complete it. [ yes, i timed myself. ] whoo. really looking forward to going out. no tuition . yahoo ! hrmmx. i can go out anyday. anytime. just wondering. when will i go to the beach? feeling a bit. "beach-y". yerp. i bet my parents won't allow. hrmm. oh well. maybe monday going out shopping with irah. hope she can come. want to buy bag. yerp. then later maybe thursday going to watch a movie. hrmm. mama didn't cook. dad brought food. and i'm hungry ! okay. bye. please give me some comments about the skin. i also want to put a video tag and remove my picture. tell me what song that fits my skin ekh? bye.

2005-06-02T00:30:00.000-07:00

hello.dad finally paid.yes! hrmm.i wanna go out.go out with slow and confront.but us,trios no money.damn it.no allowance.whats a holiday with no money? argh.i need money. ( i cut down on my coke,but its not helping. ) damn it.hrmm.i'm waiting for Zul to reply.has been 6 days, since i've been waiting for -raDeon pRince- to reply.hmm.i got a feeling Haider has already forgotten me.how many weeks already.haven't top up? impossible,Haider..Impossible.listening to Mockingbird, to kill boredom.hrmm..haven't topup.no sms.no calls.damn it.i'm so bored.god damn it.really missing pRinCe n' Haider.hmm.life's so UNpredictable for me now.i'm hungry.let's see..i have a pile of homework to be done.history project n' literature comicstrips to be done in groups..done most of history.alone.i insisted on doing.my hardwork and effort,suriati will present.amek kau! 9 contributions and crap about some of singapore's pioneers.haha.please tell ayah to give me allowance! hmm.whats a holiday with a pile of holiday homework to be done? holiday? hell-iday.hrmm.watched parent trap yesterday.whoo.wanna eat.mama didn't cook.what to eat? hrmm.afzal really pissed me off just now.i hope his presence will really turn into silence.hrmm.i changed my look.sort of.cut my fringe.i bet its shorter than danial's.going to cut it shorter.hope my face won't really become a complete CIRCLE.yes,bulat.okay.i'm going to grab a quick snack.happy holidays.yeah right..

-_ chi-bi : not in love.

2005-05-28T21:31:00.000-07:00

sorry if i haven't been updating much lately.maybe because my dad refused to pay the stahub bill or maybe i'm too lazy to lend someone else computer.

22o5`o5 ; nash`s burdae bash..chalet
went to buy ice with kak,irah and iqah.abandoned kak.she went back to chalet.sat down on a "sofa merah".kecoh with my riot cousins.bought "biskut".i drank a CAN of coke.saw this group of boys.what irah considered as "mats".and i referred to them as "juniors".they were playing the computer.( free internet access).then one by one came.smoked purposely infront of us.than got some tried to lean on me.eWw!haha.eWw? no way.than came a girl.quite jambu ar.talking on the phone.found out her name was Farah.than came three guys.they came singing this damn lame song." tiga budak hitam.duduk pat sofa merah. " than iqah left.leaving me,farah and irah.then farah asked me if i got friendster.d'0h.i said yes.than the "juniors" disturbed us.i managed to choke one.pinch one.but smiled at one.we used the computers and opened friendster.apparently,farah hasn't add me yet.buh-mer.gosh.the story so long.but i managed to catch two names.Zul and Haider.xchanged number with Haider.but i got Zul'z email.they all either cute or handsome.[ trust me on this one. ] thats all eyh for - 22o5`o5..

29o5`o5 - today.

i overslept.12 minutes past 8am.panicked.woke ma up.feeling rather upset.had my exam today.surprisingly,made it.left 6questions out.a bummer of 14 marks lost.hello! it was not easy.got home early.play the computer.than suddenly got internet connection.Alhamdulilah.play the comp.opened a message.from zul! i am so not telling you guys what he said.haha.going off eyh.i want to have lunch.

`! chibi ?

2005-05-19T06:51:00.000-07:00

haiiyahx..faiil 2w0 subjekkx..kaniinaar..hmmx..ii niid ttu bbuck upp 0n m0ii malaii n ge0g..moii mathx ii passedd..yeyex..hrmmmx..chattinx wiid derr miisterx bwiiteside ; khaiirul fahmii..sewiieush,hhe iis dammn ccute..who0 kn0x ii cudd bb intrestedd iin hiim? h0w? kekekke..n0w ii dunnchn0..khaiiri? 0rr s0me0ne elx..hhe ddoesn kerr..ii gibb a biig farrq siia..bbut..hhe gortt maturr facex..suzii ssae mukerr mmat..nno larr..sh0 maturr fface..nn0 niid waiid ferr hiim arr..bweallkxx..lisniin ttu `aangel* bii amandda perezz..` ii habb ttu ttell derr 0ne ttat ii 0ns ad0rdd.ttat theii ccant habb miie lurrb no0 m0rre. * niice ekkh? ttumorrew muxxt bbwing siilent weadiin..h0pefulli derr yyana wememberr ttu briing ekkh..n0rt bwingiin begg arr..!en0ough..saffe energii..bes0k npcc arrgh..

_- chhi-bbi aii h iim n' h iim -_

2005-05-17T01:16:00.000-07:00

ii finixx m0ii examx..who0..gort s0m markxx reddi..ii kn0 ii passedd m0ii hiixtorri..h0mec..litt..

hiist0riie..
26/26 ferr derr mapwerk ann aall..t0tal markx iish 56/1oo..okeiihx arr..ii ferstt tiime ppass tiis mahhx..

h0mec..
74/1oo..beatt ameerr alii iin thix..ii passedd..! whuu..yyana g0rt 77/1oo..howw clox..!

liit..
48/70..mmie nn suziie tiie..wakakakaa..derr paperr wwas llame andd sho siann..att leastt ppass..

temerrew..gerenntee alortx off paperr arrgh..matthx nn malaii onnie ii scaredd..okeiihx..enoughh..

dunnch wann ttu diisapp0iin moii selff..aiite..?

[- derr khaiiri 0bsessionxx -]

2005-05-11T00:23:00.000-07:00

hhey..ii diinchnno m0ii skiin gortt derr s0ng..superbb iiriitatiin..miie wann ttu cchange..bbut cannt..! waddafarrk..hrmm..wiish mme gewdd luckk..ferr onnie twwu ddaes..ii habiin m0ii malayy ttumerrew..nn m0ii h0mec derr friidae..maybb friidae ii ggo outt derr..mayyb..hiiesh..l0ng tiime neberr gg0 wiit ffarah haniie teyy aall..hiiesh..miish em sh0 mucc..ii hh0pe euu b0th readd tiis..hiiesh..

o0h khaiiri..ii ffeel sh0 badd..euu l0iike aa c0ke 0bsesii0n ferr miie..euu kn0 h0w tiite ii am wiid cokke..ebenn iif euu dunchh kerr..ii stiil dunnch kerr..ii ffeel l0iike berry rugii..ccos ii neberr gett derr channc ttu ttok ttu euu..its l0iike aa l0ss ferr miie..hiiesh..

okehh leiihx..ii tiink iim g0nna diie orr widerr jjush sms miike..aiite? nnetiink hollerbaxx..

2005-05-06T00:00:00.000-07:00

yeahh..moii blogg gortt renoovat..iim nortt goiin tto dd oderr blogg..yeshh..ii lurbb ttis bloggskinn..ii jjus fouun iit iin moii fille..sho ii tukke iit..ii tinkk itts moii siis'..yeww liike? wwell,ii du..

iim shorreyy bbut iim bb..moii midds rr herre..ii hadd moii geogg,maathx and moii histt..ii havv loiike..alortx moor subjekks..iif onny ii wass iin prii skewll..hieshh..okehh? ssho iits settledd..ii cannt channge dd songg..itts shoo soppy..haharxx..byye..

-_ * tii ammo..

2005-04-29T07:32:00.000-07:00

heyy..ii tiink iimaa stiick tto tiis blogg..aiite?